To play is to live, and to live is to play (2)

Feb 15

Father, did my practices. Such sweetness. Thank U. Looks like sathsang was fine. This morning had a tot that I will start the next sathsang by briefing them on the process, tell them to close their eyes during intervals as this will help the energy to stay in. In subsequent sathsang, I will go thru with the shambavi process.
Father, I am committed to make them enjoy sathsang the way that I enjoyed it. I want them to experience the joy that I feel. Amen.

1. Issue - Celebration
Life is a moment to celebrate, to enjoy. Make it fun, a celebration and then u will enter the temple.
Don't be too wise. A little foolishness and a little wisdom is good and the right combination makes u a buddha.
True celebration arises from from a joy that is first experienced deep within, and spills over into an overflow of song and dance and laughter, and yes, even tears of gratitude. U r now becoming more and more available and open to the many opportunities there are to celebrate in life and to spread this by contagion to others.

Soul
Yeap, sathsang is one of them. They are now definitely more happier.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
The Fool
A fool is one who goes on trusting; a fool is one who goes on trusting against all his experience. Don't try to create a wall of knowledge around u. Whatsoever experience comes to u, let it happen, and then go on dropping it. Go on cleaning ur mind continuously; go on dying to the past so u remain in the present, herenow, as if just born, just a babe.
This card indicates if u trust ur intuition right now, ur feeling of the rightness of things, u cannot go wrong.
Your actions may appear foolish to others or even to urself if u try to analyse them with the rational mind. But the zero place occupied by the Fool is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experience.

Soul
It was very difficult in the beginning. But its getting easier now. I am no longer afraid to lose my pride. I just want to share my joy with him cos I am thankful that he has the tenacity to open all my doors and the courage to open all of his doors and even more.
So, now whenever I feel like sharing I will seek him out and I let the past be bygones.
Like my boss said we never know what will happen in the future. Even if one are married they may separates, what's more when one says they r going to commit. So, it doesn't matter if he says he doesn't want to commit. We both doesn't know what will happen.

3. External influence that u r aware
The Dream
We come alone into this world, we go alone.
Nobody, whether its ur current mate or some dreamed of partner in the future has any obligation to deliver ur happiness on a platter - nor could they even if they wanted to.
Real love comes not from trying to solve our neediness by depending on another, but by developing our own inner richness and maturity. Then we have so much love to give that we naturally draw lovers towards us.

Soul
Yeap. He cannot make me happy. Only I can make myself happy. I am slowly but surely learning to seek him only when I want to give him love. I want him because I want to share myself, my joy, my happiness. And I am grateful to him for his tenacity and perseverance in helping me to cross over.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Slowing Down
Meditation is a kind of medicine - its use is only for the time being. Once u have learned the quality, then u need not do any particular meditation; then the meditation has to spread all over ur life. Do whatever u r doing, but at the deepest core remain at ease, cool, calm and centred.

Soul
I now can go into the mode. Last week when I started to feel afraid cos cannot believe I was swimming the last circle, I remember the mode of meditation and I went into it and it calmed me down and I finished the circle effortlessly.

Slowing Down
Just like the tortoise, we carry our home with us wherever we go. There is no need to hurry, no need to seek shelter elsewhere. Even as we moved into the depths of emotional waters, we can remain self-contained and free from attachments.

Soul
I now truly relate what it meant. I am always safe. I need not run to seek shelter whenever I am afraid. I just need to back inside into my home that I am always carrying with me. The doorway to go back my home is the meditation mode. And I already know the quality. Even now sitting, I can feel me and my home. Amen.

Slowing down
It is a time when u r ready to let go of any expectations u have had about urself or other people and to take responsibility for any illusions u might have been carrying. There is no need to do anything but to rest in the fullness of who u r right now. If desires and hopes and dreams are fading away, so much the better. Their disappearance is making space for a new quality of stillness and acceptance of what is and u r able to welcome this new development in a way u have never been able to before. Savour this quality of slowing down, of coming to rest and recognising u r already at home.

Soul
Yea, I now know I am carrying my home with me. And I can go back anytime. I am safe now. I am at home. Amen.

5. Resolution
Projections.
Your mind is at the back of the whole thing and the mind is the projector.
So the only way to reach the truth is to learn how to be immediate in ur vision, how to drop the help of the mind. The agency of the mind is the problem, because mind can create only dreams.
If u r too excited then u r intoxicated, then u r not in ur senses. Then whatsoever u see is just ur projection. And there are as many worlds as there are minds because every mind lives in his own world.

Soul
Yeap, same analogy to my article. Everything is neutral and if u r overly enthusiastic when it has nothing to do with u, then there is projection.

Father, let me see the truth on Z.