Transformation did happen (3) - Love Myself

Feb 15 Eve

Feedback from P
Not to be needy.
U become overwhelming when u become needy. It is especially worse as u r a self confident woman before. Just be ur confident self, love urself and let him be free.
U need to switch back the masculine energy when in relationship.

Father, I feel so liberated. I am lovable, its just that I become too needy.
What happen was whenever I faced uncertainty, I seek validation and become clingy.

Practice a non attachment to have a relationship. Remember my route in effortless work. The same goes in effortless love. Let go and let be. Yeah.
This is great especially now that I love myself and I don't allow anyone to affect my well being.

Z is my Saturn and Pluto
I am Z's Mercury and Venus.

How I see Z.
Saturn relationship is learning. U may feel restricted and burdened by this relationship, u may also sense that this relationship is something u must put up with for a while until u have learned or mastered the lesson at hand. With the proper attitude, a Saturn relationship will bring u to an entirely new level of maturity and strength.

Pluto relationship means that they will be in some way involved in changing u. U will probably feel challenged by their presence. There is something about them that u want to master in urself. Either they have something u want or they bring out a weakness in u that u want to overcome. If u take this person as a mirror for ur own personal challenge, u will be able to get the maximum benefits from this relationship. They are somehow reminding u of something that u want to achieve personally.

Soul - I want his courage and his ability to stay positive/have faith despite his setbacks in relationship and upbringing. He is a self made man, overcoming all difficulties, didn't have any bitterness or resentment for those who hurt him.
Of course, rship is my bigger challenge and I am now dealing with a player who always have upper hand. Even doubly difficult.


How Z see me

Mercury connection - a good connection.
U r given the gift of communication with them. u too have a good mental connection. This is someone with whom u r involved in a mental pursuit, such as school or classes of some kind. You probably have much in common and much to talk about. This ability to communicate is very good for intimate relationships such as marriage or love affair because communication is an important ingredient for long term success. Even if the person is not a lover or marriage, then u should at least be good friends and have something in common to talk about.

Venus connection
Is someone u love or have a lot of affection for. This can range from a dear friend or relative or to someone u would spend the rest of ur life with. The person will be friendly and helpful and possibly a source of financial help. This could be someone special in many ways.

Soul
What I want is to transcend my fear of failure in rship. Today I realised that the challenges was a way for me to see that I love myself and I need not be needy. Just like now I find that I can stand not replying to him. His msg to me was in response to my msg. Since there was no new initiation I need not respond. Previously I would respond for fear that I gave the wrong signal that I am not keen, I make myself so available. Since he find no qualms in taking 1 day to reply my message, I also need not worry that he is not ok with me not responding. I will not initiate, I have done loads. Now is his turn and if he doesn't, so be it. It not easy and I keep hoping he will initiate but for the first time I can do it. Holding myself back a bit and let the guy do the running. Father, this is a first time for me. Amen.

I need not worry that if I don't respond he will forget about me. I need not worry that he will let me go. Just like I didn't let him go when he doesn't respond, I too must give myself same respect and love.