Transformation did happen (2) - Breakthru

Feb 15 Aft

Father, no reply from him. Of course, the mind is working overtime. I ignored it and just focus on my breathe.
Was reading the info on Destiny card and it said the Environment card in age 52 is the lifetime challenge. Of course, I am not surprised mine is Seven of Heart.

Father, I am determined to overcome this and I have the tool to help me. Please guide me. Perfect tool of Z who is more afraid than me, hence runs even faster than me. Whenever he runs, I reacted by being angry at him and wanted to run. So, both parties running. And since it is mine to bear, I need to proceed

Environment card in age 52 is ur lifetime challenge
Seven of Heart
Real experience of Unconditional love
As u allow others to be who they are, u also allow yourself to be yourself, and in this way, u will be able to experience a new sense of personal freedom. To be totally free means having no attachment to others and no worries about whether or not they love us. It also means having a knowing that there will always be enough love in our life, because it comes from within.

(Mar 29 - I am finally getting it)

Soul
I only love myself when I achieve, when I have value. So, whenever in rship, I lost, I felt devalued and then I would beat myself up for trying to think I can do it.

A tot just came; perhaps that's the challenge: is for me to value and love myself irrespective of whether I succeed or failed in relationship; or even if they are keen or me or not.

So, all these challenges are just vehicles to push me to love myself in any condition. It is not becos God wants me to suffer or to make me humble.

Suddenly I cried and cried as I was driving. Later I was laughing and now I felt such sweetness for myself. I feel my heart.

It is becos the love I have for myself is conditional. What's there not to love about me! I am so lovable. Father, I will end the lifetime challenge by loving myself.
Nothing and no one has the power to rock my unconditional love for myself.

A deeper examination will reveal that u have set yourself up for these downfalls by placing unreasonable demands upon those u love and care for. U will learn to rise above this level of attachment this year to a new way of being in personal relationships that is more healthy and expansive then those in the past.

Lesson in the raising of "love consciousness". To experience unconditional love for others and in the process, I set myself free.

Soul
Amen.
(Eve - P has told me to be confident and let go of my neediness. )

Soul
Mmmm, not so simple.