Connecting with Linga Bhairavi

Nov 15
Foot recovered. Woke up around 2.40 am. Try to sleep but couldn't so finally got up at 3.40 am, shower. Start my practices at 4 am and finished at 7 am. Did a longer breathe watching. Asanas were quite good considering that I have not been doing for past one week. Shakti was great. Did breathe watching at the 4252 breathing and Kapala Bhakti. On the 4252 can now feel the max contraction of each mudra. Towards the end exploded into laughter. Shambavi was good, Suka kriya with breathe watching has a different feel, laughing at aum chanting. Just silent contentment at the end, sitting in arashidharna posture.

Went to Linga, was crying and laughing. Suddenly said I wish to have my partner and hope she helped me. At that tot no need to do the wishing ritual.
Then head bowed down on floor, sat there about forty minutes.
Then I went into the office and saw that there is available spot for wishing ritual. And I knew that's the call from Linga and so I paid for it.
Both cleansing and wishing ritual was delayed by one hour and fifteen minutes.
With the cleansing session I felt a lightheartedness, feel anew.
When the wishing process start a I cried, feeling ashamed that I m asking. I asked Linga for help. I wished for my husband to be with me for next year Kailash trip. Simple

By the time it finished it was closing session for Linga. That its a sign from Linga that she wanted me to stay on. So today was dedicated to her. Later would be Dhynalinga.

I m glad I broke thru the barrier on wishing.