North node in Taurus - finding and expressing their own values

Oct 30 mor 1

I was browsing thru my journals and saw this written back in Apr 7, 2013. At that time, I was vaguely aware thats its good to have.
Now I know that it is Must Have...I truly have difficulty in expression of negative emotions..
Many years ago I realised I was unable to express my sadness even to myself...and now I am unable to express disatisfaction with others...
All due to validation issue...
No more...

North node in Taurus
The most important goal for them is to pledge themselves to their own values and build sense of self worth. They are learning they can't establish self-worth by going along with others' values to gain validation nor can they attain self-worth through resisting others' values. Either way, they lose.
They win when they discover what is truly important and precious to them: their own values. Self-worth will come as a by-product of living according to those values.

The idea is to consciously discover what is important to them; what values give them a sense of being grounded, confidant and able to face the world without anxiety. They need to ask themselves: "
1. What principles can I live by that will make me feel good about myself, give me a sense of my own self worth, and give me a solid path to follow? 
2.  Would taking this action makes me feel good about myself regardless of the consequence in the outer world?
3. Does taking this action make me feel comfortable or anxious?
4. Is this path leading to inner peace or will it create more crisis? 
5. Is my motive self validation or to gain the validation of others?

Those pathways that validates the principles they think are inherently valuable and that give them a sense of self esteem help them win.

Soul
Yes....
P just called to ask if I am taking sabbatical for all or just the guide.
I said at the moment from just being a guide.
P said not to stress myself if I don't want to do.
I said now I will not..
I also shared with her about the other hijacking of the guru pooja plan...and put me on the spot to run it...
Now thinking about it..I realised I was also pissed that time but I didn't share.
Father, I truly got expression issue..I seems to be afraid to express negative feelings..
And all is kept within creating resentments...
I realised that when I am on Mars day or period..I tend to 'get angry'....guess all the pent-up feelings..
P said it is very important to express at the moment, not later..cos it lost its meaning and others will see us as the one with issue.