My past relationship is just like a failed exam or job interview, it is gone

Nov 8

Woke up groggy at 3 am to catch my flight. Now at Chennai airport, waiting for flight to Coimbatore.

There were some tots of past. I remind myself that I m tulip and wife is rose. No comparison. Also instead of thinking he chose the wrong gal, why don't   I focus on my new beginnings.

Suddenly it occur to me, my past with Z was just like an exam that is past. Thinking about my or his performance will never change the marks.  No point mulling it over. All tots of past stopped. This is the best stopper.

Adhyatma Upanishad
This fallacy, that the body is myself, is the cause of creating, in the imagination, the idea of past actions.

As long as whatever has been understood is also not practiced, it cannot become a part of ur being. Whatever has been understood, if it does not become assimilated in ur blood, flesh and bones, it will fade away like some coloring done on an outer surface. If you remain the same old person, all the new understanding will be eliminated, soon forgotten.

Many times u have turned back from the doorstep of truth. Many times u have found the door, it was only a matter of knocking, but again u moved

Soul
A tot of past came. I looked at it and said just as old test that I failed, it is over. Like those job interviews that I didn't make it, it is past. And I was fine cos I know there are no mistake in job. I m supposed to be with the job that supports my growth. And I m now at the job that I m meant to have, that allow me the three day off and money to go for ashram anytime I want to.
Then the same goes to the romantic relationships. There are no mistakes. We were supposed to meet and have a relationship, we too supposed to end.

Father, I m truly well. Never had this tot before.

Adhyatma Upanishad
If anything wrong is to be done we do it immediately; if something good is to be done we think about it. Both of these are very deep tricks of the mind, because whatsoever it is to be done can be done only if it is done immediately - whether being angry or doing meditations, it does not matter. We want to express anger, hence we do it immediately. We do not even wait for a moment, because if we wait we will not be able to do it.

One who repents after anger will never be able to become free from anger. Only those ego repentance precedes the anger can become free of anger, because whatsoever has already happened cannot be undone.