Siddha - fulfilled one, all roads end here

Nov 21 aft
Adyatmat Upanishad
Buddha
U will come to a state where there remains nothing to be attained or to be lost, and this become ur own experience - that nothing can be attained and nothing can be lost.

Soul
Feeling bit pensive. Tots of past still come in but more fleeting. At least now I learned not to hold on to it.
I come to realise I was the one holding on, prolonging it. Tots created by mind. It create cos somewhere I want to have a partner. So mind keeps creating to let me know something missing.
While I know I truly wanted a partner, I also knows the nagging feeling be there even if I m with one. So, want to see how to go beyond this.

Adyatmat Upanishad
Buddha
A fulfilled one, a siddha, is one whom there is no further journey, no further movement - one for whom the last camp, the last destination, has come. All roads end here.
An unfulfilled one, an asiddha, is as we are now. An ashiddha means one who still has something more to do, something has yet to happen for him to be happy, something has yet to be achieved after which happiness is expected to follow.
The happiness of unfulfilled one is dependent on something else. He has to meet certain woman, a certain man; he has to own a certain house, a certain piece of land; he has to have a certain position, has to become a president, a prime minister, or this or that. His happiness is somewhere, in something, in some object, and when that is achieved he will have happiness.
A siddha, the fulfilled one, means one who is happy in his own being. Whether he get something or whether he does not get something, is not the point. Whether something comes to him or something is taken away from him ... his happiness is not dependent on anything else but his own being; it is enough that 'I am'. There is no condition of any sort. One whose happiness is unconditional is a siddha. His happiness is here and now.


Soul
Read this in many forms and many times. But this time I m keen to take the plug.
Is there a way? To want something and yet to be okay when I don't get it.
If I don't pull this plug; no matter if I get what, the vicious cycle still continue.

Adyatmat Upanishad
Your happiness is always sometime and somewhere in the future. Happiness always keeps receding from u. That is the characteristic of an unfulfilled person. The characteristic of a fulfilled one is that happiness is here and now.
No conditions ever get fulfilled. And even if the conditions laid down are fulfilled, that condition-creating mind creates new conditions

Soul
Precisely. Never ending cycle. Let the buck stop here.