No longer need to be the nice one - dissolving Two of Diamonds

Oct 30
Body woke up before 6 am. Slept back and I m so grateful for 3 days job. It allows me the luxury to have both good sleep and sadhanas.
Practice my guru pooja, got better. Surya kriya improved. I now know that the leg alignment is depends on the standing posture. Standing posture depends on both my hands. When my hands are correctly aligned I be standing straight. When I m standing straight, leg stretch alignment will be correct.
That's life. When I set the parameter and express them I got the life that I want.

Shakti was great, real focus in all the steps. Towards the end i was laughing loads. I will do the Shakti diligently from now onwards. Take my time. It is important for my dream of Self mastery.
So is Samyama; to be practice continuously. To start during watching television.
Shambavi was good too.
Half way through I realised that I wasn't able to sit in arashidharna cos my body is bent too forward and back side not touch and the more it become difficult. It has been nearly one month since I lost it.
Today I sat on my backside and let the body ground itself. It is not using the back bone. It is using the backside buttock. When that's in place, there is a feeling of grounding and then the spine is not stretched.
Again, that's life. A story here.

Towards the end, contentment sets in. So nice. Truly glad I have the yantra.

Along the practices a tot came, to eat salad with seafood. Let my body gets used to it.

From Facebook
One of the hardest lesson in life  is letting go. Whether its guilt, love, anger, loss or betrayal. Change is never easy.
We fight to hold on and we fight to let go.

Soul
This morning I tot, no more challenge. I need not force myself to be friend with Z eventhough he and wife is in vicinity. Just like I need not continue to be friend with S. No more. Once and for all, dissolve Two of Diamonds.

Father, the last two trips was for me to dissolve Z, to let go.

This trip is for me to affirm my path. I m going in deeper in myself by Samyama. And I know I will get chance to get Shakti corrected. Amen.