No more being hard on myself...time to be hard on others, reinstate my parameters

Oct 30 mor

Just like I told A that he asserted the power of fixed mind on himself, the same I asserted the power to change on myself. I always asked myself to change. I just realised I m ok, I need not change to suit others.

So, I need not force myself to change to accept both S and Z. They were in the past. Maybe its me but they are no longer good for my growth. Infact my growth is on letting go of both of them. I seldom ends relationship on my own accord. Well I m doing it now. Once and for all, dissolved Two of Diamonds.

Even North Node in Taurus said that power of transformation is from my South Node. I need not relive it again.

Father, alas I now understand what Going with the Flow means.

Today card
The Three of Diamonds in Mars

The Three of Diamonds signifies that indecision or worry about some money matter may be a large part of your experience when this card is present. This card has such a strong creative energy associated with it that if we don't find some productive, creative outlet for its energies, we will inevitably feel afraid and indecisive. The key is to find ways to express ourselves when this card shows up.
It could also mean getting two opportunities for work at one time or having to split our time between two projects or money-making deals. Often variety can be a blessing allowing us to explore other areas. Usually, however, lack of focus brings lack of achievement or lack of detail in one project or the other. Knowing this may help you avoid wasting this invaluable creative force.

Soul
I have decided...no more changing myself to suit others.
I am perfectly fine...

Got this from FB
Mindfulness Ireland
When you replace: "Why is everything always so hard for me? to "Everything always works out for me....
Life can take you in new direction..
It shifts the energy. It's all in your focus.
Be positive.

Soul
Yea...I always said I need to change myself...
No more...just be who I am right now...
I was the one who is hard on myself...no more being hard.
Instead...time to be hard on others...
Now I learned from A...