Awesome sannidhi pooja when full moon is near

Dec 5 eve

Today had an outing with an old friend. Sometimes I can be a bit irritated at times with her but today I find myself so calm. So accepting..must be the grounding effect by stopping the plough back.

Today sannidhi pooja. I knew I wasn't looking forward cos I just woke up from afternoon nap. But I did it cos sannidhi needs it, my commitment.
Start the pooja and I was fine. When the song started I cried quite heavily. It was unexpected. Then I cry again a few times during Brahmananda.
I recalled I cried for all my fears.
Cried why I now afraid during swimming. A answer come, chant Brahmanda in the pool.

Later I cried when I sang guru pooja. Cried from first phrase. Then suddenly need to say grace to Linga Bhairavi and I sang 3 cycle of Struthi; cried again. Loads of crying. With Linga I cried for my fears, a moment tot of miss Z, but it wasn't so. I just missed having my partner.

Guess tomorrow full moon, hence today energy getting bigger.  Yesterday the studio energy was also big.

For the last two days my finger joints are bit painful. The left thumb lower is now swelling. Can't do proper mudra.

For the first time in years the pool now become a scary place instead of blissful place.