Choosing what makes me happy

Nov 25 eve
Today took the leaves from the Thulasi leaves that Pm gave me.
Had a deep Sannidhi pooja. No tears and just a bit of laughter. Went in deep.
Love the sannidhi song. I immersed myself in it.
Brahmanda good too.

Cat stretch was lovely, just being at ease on the pose. Even my right side no longer gasping. Breathing was good.
Shoonya went in real deep.

Had a nice evening watching drama show with family.
Very little tots.
Tot of how all of us the core team has grown our separate ways. Each now found our values.
I know now that being in local ISHA was the same as me being with the big sister company. Just last week a colleague ask me why leave a big company for a small one. I replied commercially doesn't make sense but emotionally it does.
The same now on local Isha. To others who wanted to front line position wonder why I gave it up. But to me it's because I know it is for a show. I can't sustain it. Just as I can't sustain the work in the big company. It doesn't make me happy
Now I understand the Osho integration card, about the conflict within man. It was a tussle.
Now no more tussle; I am surely going back to my true values, what I can sustain.

Sannidi the best investment. Never knew it could lead me to where I am now. Also stop doing the plough back gave me the groundedness and brings clarity. Amen.