Feeling thankful

Dec 3
Woke up around 6 am and slept back.
Truly glad that I am blessed to have off days and can sleep later. Had a dream, Y and wife was there too. Can see me looking at Y's wife as Y gave her some writing. Part of me was envious in the dream, the other part knew that we are not right for each other.
Woke up upon alarm at 7.05 am. and feeling thankful again.
This few days, I just feel thankful for what I have now, my off days, my financial security, my shrine.
These two weeks, left hand is swelling and so is left back ankle. Truly need Angamardhana.

Yesterday sat with the Shrine, closer to sannidhi and the energy was awesome.
I just sat and head shakes non stop automatically.
i didn't even have time to 'think', head just went off shaking.
When the shaking stop, went into a deep meditation.

Yesterday evening Shoonya was good too, real deep.

Did guru pooja followed by cat stretch.
It was not effortless and I just focus on slightly deeper breathing.
Surya Kriya was good.
Breathing meditation was lovely.
Shakti was good, I was laughing at the Kapala Bhakti session. Towards the end, laughter and singing. It just flow out. I can't help it.
Shambavi started well with good preparatory steps. Cat stretch was quite effortless.
After the cat stretch my 2 small nephews came in and create ruckus.
So, wasn't able to have my own space. but still laughter happens.
My nephews thought i was hilarious with my head shaking during aum chanting.
Towards the end, a silent contentment...had to end cos my nephews now playing loudly.

Again, feeling thankful that I am out of the rat race.