Your longings can make you vulnerable to the dark side

Nov 27
Yesterday pooja was nice. Sweet feeling of contentment. Had my sadhana. Cat stretch was lovely. Shoonya went in real deep.

Woke up at 4 am upon alarm with a jerk. Tell myself to just calm down. Doze a bit and came up 4.17 am.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch. Truly love cat stretch now.
Did 3 cycle of Surya Kriya, TShirt keep on falling off my body cos now I m able to do straight forward bend with forehead nearly touching my knees.
Shakti was okay. Kapala Bhakti not so great and I was bit lost in tot.
Shambavi was good. Wish I could sat longer in the silent contentment.

The power of empathy
Longings, yearnings, dreams, desires, hopes, cravings; they all represent the same thing - what u hope in ur life.
Do u long for security, marriage, children, long-lasting love, peace and quiet, independent wealth, serenity, spiritual enlightenment, material possession and etc
Ur longings will reveal the empty spaces in ur life, can make u vulnerable to the dark side.


Soul
Yeap. I was longing for my partner and hence lower my standards and was conned quite a big sum of money in a spate of one month many years ago. Luckily I didn't give in to his demand for sex. Or else be bad. I just walked and did a police report. Changed my number and never let him in again.
On Z, yes. I too lower my standards on mental compatibility and went into a non-committal rship knowing that I was in love with him. But no regrets.

The power of empathy
The past always influences the present, and our secret wishes and expressed desires often point to the places where history intrudes on present day life.


Soul
The worst things was I criticised myself badly when both of them seems/claimed to have financial difficulty. I stupidly tot I m the cause and hence willing to either wait and give money to them.

The power of empathy
Empathy helps us understand our longings and gauge their influence on our lives. Ask urself: what do I want? What do I need? What material possession will make a real difference in the quality of my life? What accomplishment will satisfy me and put my heart at rest?
 Many of us want to excel in chosen field; most of us wants to be admired, respected, loved.
Longing for fame, admiration and unconditional love are often generated by the desire to compensate for a disappointing past.

Soul
I searched for my past and know that it happen when I was two year old. I was being taken care by neighbour cos my mom couldn't take care of so many children when she is pregnant with my younger sister.
In my early thirties I found out that I was given instead of my two year old older elder sister cos I m cheerful whereas my sister cry non stop.
Still that didn't stop me from still wanting; from seeking validation from peer.