My shrine, my home

Dec 23
Woke up feeling okay at 3.55 am.
 Yesterday feeling bit off. Somehow doesn't want to sit with the Shrine. Some resistance, guess was feeling overwhelmed with yesterday new Moon energy. But couldn't sleep. Took me about twenty minutes or so before I can sleep.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch.
Did Angamardhana and it was quite good. Sweat some but not as much as those day. Was not so tired. Guess the Yogaasanas helps too.
Surya Kriya was good too and so was breathing meditation.
Shakti was good.
Shambavi good too.
Today got some time to sit in contentment after Shambavi.

Just received msg from P. Now that I no longer hold her as close friend, my expectation is lowered. No more resentment that she can't give me the affirmation that I want.
Had some tots today on how I was excluded from local Isha. Instead of attacking P, I just counter my mind by saying it happen due to my issue in seeking validation. It was painful cos I couldn't let go on my own. It had to be taken away. They doing me a favour.


Jan Spiller
Astrology for the Soul
The house is like a shell - the environment u need to support the content of the sign.

Mine is North node in Taurus in 11th house; cultivating the energy of friendship and learning to "let go".

Soul
My lifetime challenge is Seven of Hearts.
P trying to chat up but I can't be hooked anymore. I now have clarity that we are not close friend, she is all grown up on lead volunteer and I can let go of her. My responsibility is over.
And me not keen to get back into local Isha. I am now in hata yoga. And even that my commitment is the media. For corporate, I will just be intro whenever opportunities arise.

Yesterday chat with Y's wife. She told me she was feeling unhappy due to her dad's surgery and she can't come to meet. Her husband, Y, don't want to leave her alone in the house. I m happy for her. Slight feeling of envy, wishing I have such a partner but at least Y a good guy.
Now I know yesterday the cries to Linga was I still wanted my partner. And I leave it to her. If no partner forthcoming then my shrine be my companion for life.
So grateful that I found my home in my shrine.