Giving back to myself

Dec 14 aft 1

North node in Taurus
For spiritual balance their destiny is to experience the sensual enjoyments of life, to become grounded and to regain a sense of their own earthly substance.
In past lives, they developed a deep enjoyment of the spiritual/psychic senses. Now it is time to develop a deeper awareness of the five physical senses.
When they spend time giving themselves physical rewards and sensual pleasure, they won't need as much from others.
 Situation with others that evoke insecurity will occur less frequently when these folks are consistently reinforcing a base of calm inside themselves.

Soul
A good reminder.
my sadhana with hatha yoga a must have
my decaf coffee and dessert time good to have.
hence my facial, massages and pedicure are good to have.
my future partner, good to have.
Amen.
Everything is falling into place.

My lifetime challenge card
The Seven of Hearts
The Seven of Hearts indicates that whatever time this card appears could be marked by many challenges in love and feelings in your close relationships. The Seven of Hearts can manifest as betrayal by those we love. In any case, we will be tested to see just how attached we are to others being a certain way.

Seven, being a highly spiritual number, promises success in love if you try a new approach and adopt a more selfless or unattached attitude. If we can allow others to be who they are and not place so many demands upon them, we not only become more aware of their true personalities, but also we allow ourselves the freedom to be just who we are and experience just how it feels to be free of fear and attachment. Many high spiritual experiences have occurred while a seven was present.

Soul
I now know I am on the right track.
Loving myself the way I wanted to be loved.
Knowing others love language could be different from mine and stopped hoping that they change. Find a comon ground for loving expressions.
Letting others be themselves cos I let myself be me.
Such freedom.

Mmm, now know why my this year challenge card is Queen of spades.
Ruling 2014/2015
Pluto
Queen of Spades
Somehow connected to ur result card you are attempting to develop a sense of mastery from within, a greater level of organisational ability or both. Self mastery comes from inner knowledge and self control. It is knowing u can have everything u want, not by changing the world but by changing yourself.
U will have to work hard this year and possibly doing work that u find somewhat distasteful.  Spades are work and the Queen using her work as karma yoga, a tool to purify her tots and emotions.
This is the goal u have set for urself and u must have good reason for why u want this. Keep this uppermost in ur mind as u progress through the year. U will no doubt have to make changes within and outside of urself  to achieve this goal.

Affirmation
I develop my capacity to transform my life by changing my beliefs, ideas, and concepts of the world. I become the master of myself.

Result
Nine of Clubs
Much of ur challenges is to let go of outworn ideas, projects, plans or way of communicating. This is a year of completion that may at times seem like disappointing endings.
The Nine of Clubs says that u are completing a major chapter in ur life and it is time to move on to greener pastures.
Be open to spiritual wisdom in all forms, as this will help make change easier.

Affirmation
I complete projects this year and let go of the past. I broaden my understanding by releasing old ways of thinking.