North Node's critical lesson - let go of intense adrenalin fix in relationships

Dec 19 aft 4
Can't remember where I got this.

North Node
The North Node is the single most  important point in the chart...it describes what your Soul wants to learn and experience in this life. It is a Soul Messenger.”   
The second clue is the North Node. Many astrologers today believe it is the single most important point in the chart. It is unique to each person and describes what your Soul wants to learn and experience in this life. It is a Soul Messenger, describing the evolutionary needs of your Soul.

When we act out the qualities of this Node we heal and nurture ourselves. It tells us in what area of life we need to bring emphasis, and some of the ways to do it.  The North Node has a sign, a house position, and aspects, and is an excellent suggestion---similar to the idea of a personal guiding North Star.
The movement towards the North Node is a continuous process, not just one decision you make.
Most astrologers would agree that the South Node reflects karmic qualities of our previous life, describing the unfinished business and things that we didn't 'get quite right.' Although there are gifts and talents shown there, it is the North Node that points to the qualities our Soul wants to use and acquire in this life. So when you have a chart reading, take a long look at what your North Node tells you, even if it feels a little unfamiliar and challenging. It offers a potent suggestion.            
                
NORTH NODE IN TAURUS, SOUTH NODE IN SCORPIO
Through previous incarnations the soul has acquired an overemphasis of energy in the area of over reliance on the resources and values of others.  Driven by an intense desire to bond and merge with a partner, Taurus North Node individuals have sacrificed their own needs and value systems as a means of empowering their partners and thereby receiving validation in return.

In order to heal this energy imbalance of the soul, a critical lesson for these individuals is to learn to empower themselves.  They need to shift their focus from defining their self worth via validation from others to discovering and living in accordance with their own true needs, comfort zones and value system.

Developing a strong relationship with the natural/physical world can facilitate the healing process:  Tuning into and spending regular time close to nature is a beneficial form of nurturing for these individuals, providing a calming, re-energizing and balancing effect which will help to dispel their unconscious need for intense, high adrenaline crisis situations in their lives.  Also cultivating pleasure via the five senses will assist in creating a sense of grounding and an awareness of their own inner strength, stability and support.

Soul
This is exactly what I need to read now.
In the beginning it was my career..when I stopped myself from getting adrenalin from career, it went into relationships.
It went into local Isha.
Then it was romantic rship with Z, later Y and then alas was P, my last link to local Isha.
I was holding on to them cos seeking their validation.
With the sadhana and my shrine of Devi, Dhynalinga yantra and Sannidhi; everything is coming together.
I no longer afraid to be alone. I can come on my own.
I can come out now with my spiritual life in yoga, in Isha.
I am now grounded
I found my Home.

North node in Taurus
A critical lesson that needs to be learnt in this lifetime is to let go of past life behavioural patterns of exchange relationships.  The stronger Taurus North Node individuals become in supporting themselves and defining their self worth via their own value system, the more likely they are to attract a spiritually fulfilling partnership with someone who is also self-empowered.

Many events in this incarnation will provide Taurus North Node individuals with the challenge of learning to effectively integrate the energy polarities of stability and self reliance (Taurus North Node) and transformation and synergistic partnership (Scorpio South)

Soul
Yea, finally can let go of P.
No more holding on to her due to access to local Isha.
I can now stand on my own.
Amen.