Loads of releases by crying

Nov 19
Today feel sleepy.
Body is tired from the flu and medication. Couldn't wake up even at 6 am alarm. In the end force myself to be up at 6.30 am cos want to do sadhana.
Did Bhuta Shuddi and followed by a very good cat stretch.
The small spot besides the bed in hotel room has a nice energy. It is very small but energy is good, as if sannidhi is here with me. Can be meditative in minutes.
Did a short breathing. Not great cos have tots of how to promote hata yoga without local ISHA. Not easy.
Shakti not good because was coughing out loads of phelgm. Looks like my flu and cough didn't improve much after 5 days of medication. Worse now that I m in hotel.
Shambavi was good.
I cried at the end of Shambavi. Cried to Sadhguru for help. Knowing that without promoting local Isha, not easy to promote the studio. So have to go back. I cried for the uncertainty in me.

Later I cried for the wonderful sadhana. To be able to feel such contentment, just doing sadhana is so awesome. To be able to be in the space beyond the world. The space where my personality is not found. The place where I truly am. Amen.

On the promotion of ISHA. Will attend to it next week. Do need a chat with P on how can we work together. But will tell her I m now expressing my feeling. Earlier I hold back cos fear of being known to have feeling of being called sensitive and also fear of losing a capable and committed volunteer like P. So in order to have her in the team I hold back myself.
I admit I don't have the drive and commitment as her but I have the capability to inspire, to promote and to close the deal.