Tendency for drama of romance and personal relationships

Dec 19 aft 5

Can't remember where I got this. But this tells me of my lifetime of Seven of Hearts.

North Node in Aquarius and/or in the Eleventh House
With North Node in Aquarius, our South Node is in Leo. With North Node in the eleventh house, our South Node is in the fifth house.
A tendency to become overly attached to the drama of romance and personal relationships, to be willful and overly focused on getting what we want, and to resist being "one of the crowd" in an effort to stand out as unique and special, are some of the issues this position suggests.

With this position, we need to let go of our fears in relationships by offering freedom to our partners instead of expecting our partners to act as we want them to act, to accept that we are all equal and that we can still be special if we belong to a community, to move towards greater impartiality, and to cultivate sensitivity to the needs of others.

By letting go of the strong desire of getting what we want in the here and now, satisfaction will come more easily as we find that we get what we need. Our personal relationships and romances will suffer when we take things too personally, and expect others to follow a certain script that we have unconsciously written for them.

Learning to let go of the need for drama and attention, and moving towards a more objective approach to our lives, as well as cultivating true friendships, will help us to achieve a greater sense of balance. Our relationships with others as well as our relationship with ourselves will benefit.

Soul
Guess thats the part of lovelanguage that I just recalled recently.
Letting go of my projections on others so that I no longer hold on to one-sided relationship.
Learning that others idea of friendship can differ from mine.
And yet holding on to my values of having open close friendships. If the other can't, then I will now stop barking at the door to open, stop hurting myself, stop expecting others to give me what I want.

Mmm, suddenly can see P and my brother is the same...and Z was that too...
Father, truly lifting my projections.