Sannidhi resolves my dilemma - Freelance promoter of Isha

Nov 22 eve
This morning woke up, didn't do Bhuta Shuddi cos can't find my kit.
Sang guru pooja followed by cat stretch. Went in deep. Did 6 cycles of Surya Kriya, getting quite effortless with slow breathing or rather normal breathing during postures. The corrected cat stretch truly helps in Surya Kriya.
Shakti was good.
Shambavi too.
And in the midst of the sadhana, suddenly my dilemma resolved. Just be freelance endorser and promote whichever that I m keen on. Just as I m not tied to local Isha, I too am not tied to local hata yoga.
I know I don't want to be volunteer as that is not my route; not my values. But what I can is to promote ISHA as I have experienced. I m now the independent promoter. That's all. I can just get the deal. Do all the liaison as I m inspiring. Once I got the deal and got everything ready I got the execution team in. I want the independence to select where I farm it out too. Then I only promote when I want to, how I want to, who I want to. No more obligations to anyone.
A contentment settle in me.
Now I understand the Creativity Osho tarot card and what to do is Comparison. No need to compare. I may not be valuable as volunteer but I am a valuable promoter. Just as I can't do what they do, they too may not do as well as I did.
Energy with the shrine so nice. Just feel contented. Alas no more disturbance.

As I saw them joining the hata yoga class I feel bit left out. Then I realised its just fear of loss of validation issue. Infact I m not keen on going for regular guided practices. I am okay for refresher like one or twice a month. I prefer to do on my own with my shrine. My shrine best investment.