Letting go of the past

Dec 19 aft 2
Osho tarot card this week.

 Internal influence that I am unaware
The past is no more and the future is not yet: both are unnecessarily moving in directions which don't exist. One used to exist, but no longer exists, and one has not even started to exist. The only right person is one who lives moment to moment, whose arrow is directed to the moment, who is always here and now; wherever he is, his whole consciousness, his whole being, is involved in the reality of here and in the reality of now. That's the only right direction. Only such a man can enter into the golden gate. The present is the golden gate. Here-now is the golden gate. ...And you can be in the present only if you are not ambitious--no accomplishment, no desire to achieve power, money, prestige, even enlightenment, because all ambition leads you into the future. Only a non-ambitious man can remain in the present. A man who wants to be in the present has not to think, has just to see and enter the gate. Experience will come, but experience has not to be premeditated.

Soul
Truly great.
This week been having tots of Z and P. Going back into past memories.
After removing my projection from Z and P, I can now see it was a one-sided relationship.
My weakness as INFJ may be difficulty in letting go of bad relationship but my strength is also the ability to let go completely once I know for sure that the relationship is over.
It is over for Z and P with me.


Today card very true.
Saturn
My Daily Card
The Jack of Hearts
The Jack of Hearts is known as the 'Christ Card', or the 'Card of Spiritual Sacrifice'. Whenever it is present, you will feel and be encouraged to elevate your thinking, speaking and acting to a higher level. You may also decide to make some sort of personal sacrifice when this influence is present. This would likely be for the sake of someone younger than yourself though it can take other forms. The period position will delineate the exact nature of the sacrifice you feel impelled to make.
In any case, this card does bring a strong dose of higher, spiritual love into our lives and will encourage us to do things from a higher motive than usual.

Soul
Not easy..quite humbling that it all been one-sided.
But can now let go.
No more seeking for love where there is none.
So truly glad for my sannidhi..my true love.