Letting go of my expectation of friendship

Dec 17

Woke up around 6 am but slept back.
Then was in a dream when the alarm rang at 7 am.
Sprung up but I lay down for a bit, until my  heart beat is normal.
Sang guru pooja followed by cat stretch.
Did my yogaasanas, nice..
Did one cycle of surya kriya was perfect alignment.
Breathing was nice.
Shakti was good, Kapala Bhakti was fine and I was singing and dancing in the end.
Shambavi good too...
Lovely experience..thanks to my shrine.


During my practices some tots come on P and my ending in local Isha. Guess I felt a bit hurt that she didn't share with me that she is now the guide after making me pull out cos no one want to do a year ago. But part of me know that it is not about me. Guess, thats my Seven Of Hearts challenge. I tot she was my close friend but guess in reality she is not. She doesn't tell me anything of her life...whereas I am more open, I share. Well, she is just a friend..not a close friend.
Once I put her in the right perspective, I no longer have false expectation of our friendship. It was all in my mind, thats all.
Just like I recalled I have such high and low with S and then with P. Just as I ended with S, same I too end my expectation with P.

Below excerpt is true, me stuck in an unhappy friendship. Me expecting something that will never happen. Time to let go of my expectation.

Queen of Diamonds
Queen of Diamonds are generous and will always help their friends and try to provide to their family. They can sacrifice for those they love, and with all these wonderful qualities, they might be stuck in an unhappy marriage until later in life or pursue different partners throughout their life. It might make very little or even no sense to anyone who knows the Queen of Diamonds closely. But all these "inconveniences" in life are there to achieve freedom and initialization to the higher wisdom and power.

INFJ as friends
Once a common thread is found though, people with the INFJ personality type make loyal and supportive companions, encouraging growth and life-enriching experiences with warmth, excitement and care. As trust grows, INFJs will share more of what lies beneath the surface, and if those ideas and motives are mutual, it’s the sort of friendship that will transcend time and distance, lasting a lifetime. INFJs don’t require a great deal of day-to-day attention – for them, quality trumps quantity every time, and over the years they will likely end up with just a few true friendships, built on a richness of mutual understanding that forges an indelible link between them.

Soul
Thats me.


My Daily Card
The Seven of Diamonds

The Seven of Diamonds is one of the spiritual money cards. When it appears we are always confronted with how attached we are to our money and given an opportunity to experience the real prosperity that comes with an attitude of gratitude.

Whether it is about money, plans to make money, or love, situations will present themselves that test our faith in the abundance of the universe. By realizing and then releasing our fears, we can transform our attachment into total fearlessness and personal freedom.

Soul
Yes, prepared to let go of P. She was never in my league. It was me holding on to her.
She has let go years ago or maybe never mine to begin with.