Allowing all of life's colors to penetrate us, we become integrated

Osho for the week
1. The issue - The lovers
Sex is blw love
Love is in the middle
Compassion is abt love

Love is honouring the unique individuality of the other. We begin to understand that our partner often functions as a mirror, reflecting unseen aspects of our deeper self and supporting us to become whole.
Love is freedom, not expectation or need. Its wings take us higher and higher towards the universal love that experiences all as one.

Soul - did my shoonya. This mornin when I read d card, I tot of Freedom - since my close friend didn't give me freedom to be myself. I cut off with her. But now, I realised I was even more angry wit myself for letting the rship deteriorate to this extent. For not sharing myself n led her to wrong conclusion of me. And I realised jus like her unable to say to her friend, I too was unable to say to her. So, in that sense, she is my mirror. Do I love her? Yes, do I want to grow the rship? Yes. Does this means I have to tell her my tot? Yes. If I were to convey in a productive way, wld she listen?? Yes.
Anger
Guilt
Fear
Love.
I will write another note. But I must set this right.

2. Internal influence - Integration
We r the union of eagle and swan; life and death. The card of integration is the symbol of self-creation, new life and mystical union.

Soul - I now know my path is to go beyond death. Is to create new life for me and Close friend. Destruction is easier than creation and I choose Creation. I will write again and open up myself.

3. External influence - the miser
Things r not the target, but a beautiful u, not many things, but an open being.
This challenges us to look what are we clinging to, and what we feel is so valuable that it need to be protected by a fortress.
Take the risk to express our love to another.

Soul - yea:, I told myself I didn't open up to Close friend cos I didn't wan her to make me feel small, didn't wan her to shake my confidence in exploring my inner journey, didn't want to make her feel small if she can't follow me. Cos she is quite sensitive n wld say I look down on her. Perhaps I did. So, I have been exploring loads without her. I was holding back in the rshup cos I don't wan to trigger it. By by holding back, the rship is stagnant n become lopsided. In a way, Close friend is more daring than me. She took the risk, I didn't. Of cos, I told myself she is facing me and I m accepting, at least on the surface.
The previous fight we hav is when she wan to force her view of food to me. And now she want to force her view of my meditational journey. So, it is time and I wld take the risk and I trust her love for me n she will do her part.

I also open up d meditation to my own friends. I have been keeping d meditation private, afraid of how people wld see me. Afraid to share. Afraid that they see this new part of me, the one that is emotional n so vulnerable, can cry and laugh so easily.

Yea, for Close friend. Don't hav to send long email. Jus start to open up and share. She didn wan to join, but at least I open up. I send her the sms reply ;
Its in d evening. Hope u can join so u know what is my path now. It is not easy for me but I like to open up myself to u so u can see who I am now, instead of seeing the old waibeng.

4. What is needed for resolution.
New Vision.
When u open up to the ultimate, immediately it pours into u. You are no longer an ordinary human being - u have transcended.
Ur inner being, when it opens, first experiences two directions: the height, the depth. And then slowly, slowly, as this becomes ur established situation, u start looking around, spreading into all other eight directions.

Now u r presented wit an opportunity to see life in all its dimensions, from the depths to the heights. They exist together, and we come to know from experience that the dark and the difficult are needed as much as the light and easy, then we begin to have a very different perspective on the world.
By allowing all of life's colors to penetrate us, we become integrated.

Soul - mmm, not sure on this yet. But I have open up to all my friends. That's the 1st step.

5. The resolution
Intensity.
When u act with the intensity of the Knight of Fire. It is likely to create ripples in the waters around u.
Some will feel uplifted and refreshed by ur presence, others may feel threated or annoyed. But the opinions of others matter little; nothing can hold u back right now.

Soul - well, like I said I have open up. I m clear in my path. I will share but is up to them. I experienced the bliss, laughter, tear and agony.