Ego ticking but less

Sept 16 (afternoon)

Expect a miracle
Opening the mind - if we are willing to see things differently, they have a way of showing up differently.
When our mind are open, there are no walls or barriers to curb the flow of energy and everything becomes possible.
Being right, only means that we have succeeded in perpetuating an old paradigm of unfulfilling relationship. Having negative expectations in our minds is like putting up a wall that keeps love away.
If we do not shift out this expect-the-worst mentality, the world will continue to deliver us our worst fears.

Mantra
My mind is open to divine inspiration.
Discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.


Soul - Mmm, my colleague who said she wan to join but can't now. Of cos, ego said I didn't remind but in d end, its her mah. Who knows, she is not ready.
Divine intervention - let me accept that all my various calls/emails has not materialise. In the end, at least I know that I don't hav the magnet yet. The magnet like Viiji, u wan to hav what she is having. And I admit, I hav not integrate myself to be the magnet. So, it takes time. Next program is next year, so that will give me a few more mths to acclimatise.
Last time, I wld be very disappointed, a scale of 8 mayb, and now a 4. So that's 50 percent reduction.
At least 1 person be there - Kim. SL m not sure also.
Mmm, 10 percent hit rate for effort but 1 percent for the contacts reached out.

Mmm tot of my sharing in IE Intro
Its been a year since I meditated.
This program really works. It works even if u think u can never meditate. It works even if u love to eat meat and coffee everyday.
I love the meditation as I always feel great. Its a great tool to release my daily office stress. And there are loads of benefits.

But lately, I hav been asking myself, is there more? Is there any change to me!?
I used to be fearful of expressing myself fully. And now I find I can laugh, I can cry and I can be snapish at people and I can end rship that is no longer right. I don't have to meet deadline if I cannot I feel so liberated, I can finally be who I am.
Less bothered abt what people think of me. It is so liberating. I can be who I am without any fear.
I can be good n naughty side, cheeky, can be average, be angry, be snappish, be childish if I wanted to.