Opening to face my last hurdle on my body

Sept 16

Mmm, meditation is ok. I laughed little but I felt happy.
I m glad of d Suria Namaskara - opening up all my points
Yday before I slept, I reflected n tot that my bad behaviour showing. Behaviour that I have curtailed. I can be rude n couldn't be bother. For a moment was judging myself based on what close friend said abt loving.

Then I recalled she couldn't accept my sadness too, which is required for happiness.
And I have been good all these years, feeling guilty when m not. I can now feel bad.
I think this is what J and A experience when they first let go of their anger.
I hav to accept my bad in order to accept good.
Tot of d word - Fearlessness.

Also reading Osho I knew close friend's influence from Christianity, only want love, happy without d bad. U hav to accept both.
Perhaps this is what meant by Fearlessness. Not afraid to be bad n then u will not afraid to be good too.
Honestly, I am afraid to be good, afraid it is not reciprocated, not wanted, afraid I lose out.

Expect a mircale
Putting an act in order to gain someone's love is sending a msg that who you are is not good enough. There is no self-love in that and certainly no magnetism.
When we r comfortable wit all aspect of ourselves, self-love and magnetism comes naturally.

Soul - mmm, confirming my current observation.

Expect a miracle
Trinity self
1. Body - physical manifestation
2. Mind - personality and identity
3. Spirit - unique spiritual path

Each element has its own role to play in helping us navigate our lives and connect with other people.
The synergy of the integrated self is what makes us rich and attractive.
Without the magic of the spirit, the mind is nothing more than an intellectual machine.
And without the rationale and curiosity of the mind, the spirit does not have a vessel through which to express itself.
Without the body to contain the ideals, abstracted energies remain ungrounded.


Soul, what happen to feeling, I think is parked under body. During last sathsang, I have wished for a balance of body, mind, feeling and energy. I wanted all to be of equal power. So, this also confirm that. I know my mind is sharp, my spirit is willing and now is my body. Perhaps that's why I finally can do Suria Namaskara and perhaps Hatta is what I need since my resesive part is d body.
Infact the tot of going to Sunday IE, fear of playing games, knowing m not good, fear of falling down, fear of people laughing.


Expect a miracle
Each aspect of ourself influences and enriches the others. We might find a partner we connect with on one level, but still unfulfilled because the other 2 aspects have been asleep.

To settle on someone because he connects well with one or even 2 aspect of ourselves is a compromise that ultimately cheat the soul of full expression. By the same token, we can't expect to find a partner until we have fully awakened each of the aspects within ourselves.

When all parts of the Trinity Self are operating at the highest level possible, we become powerful magnets for love. Only then we naturally link up with the partner who can join with us for the lessons and experiences we most need in order to further grow and evolve.
So, now let's align ourselves internally so that we are radiant on every level n we become magnetic.

Soul - mmm, I know I needed a mind person and recently a spiritual person. As for body, not in my agenda yet. Mmm, since my body is resesive, I don't recall men are highly attracted to me and neither do I recall m highly attracted to them. The magnetism is definitely missing from people to me and of cos from me to people.
Jus tot of perhaps that's why I wasn't able to pull people in yet. I don't hav the magnetism. So, if I work on this, is good not only for getting my husband but also for my dream of helping people.

Expect a miracle
Be aware of the messages that we are always imparting through our bodies.
People can almost immediately determine your emotional state by the vibration your body exudes.

In order to be ready to receive love, its important to know both what our bodies communicate to others and what they are trying to tell us.

Within us, is our past, our present and predictably our future, so in order to shift the potential for our future, we need to thoroughly relax the body and release the trapped fear-based energy.

Soul - mmm, I didn't know I was holding a gem. Or perhaps I wasn't ready then.

Expect a miracle
Mantra - I am grounded and comfortable in my body.

Your body is a vessel through which Grace flows. The clearer u ate, the more radiant and magnetic u become.

Breathe in deep and exhale wit a sound for 10 times. Bringing out trapped feeling and clearing us.

Soul - I am rooted and contented in my body.
Mmm, in Shakti, we have d breathing (but not deep) n we make sound from throat when we exhale.

Expect a miracle
She has grown so accustomed to the idea that she was not enough and wasn't destined for love that she kept manifesting disappointment and failure. She has forgotten how to express openness for so long that she become her own self-fulfilling prophecy. But becos she took action to open up, the Trinity Self was able to lift from disharmony and become more powerful.

Soul - I wan to learn hatta yoga. Not becos of Samyama but becos my body is resesive and I want to make it strong so the Trinity Self can work.