I can truly meditate!

Yday meditation was amazing.

There were no reply from Teacher Nadha Brahma and I been wondering when is d best time to sing the song. Yday I reached home abt 9.45 pm. After my shower, before meditation, I tot I really have a stress day at office and I needed to release the tension. So tot why don't I sing Nadha Brahma as it will help me to soften up before meditation. I sang and towards the end, tears fell and in d moment, tension was released and I felt soften up. Then I did my shoonya, flood of tears came n then follow by laughter. Later did my Shakti n d Kapala Bhakti was intense n m now into 120 times already. It was so intense that I can't focus during the counting session for the body breathing n then I tot I can't do the whole Shambavi as I m already into deep meditation.

But I recalled my commitment n then a tot came, forgo the legs session and adjourned straight to surka kriya as that is d real starting point of Shambavi and I did that n Shambavi was really intense, my head was shaking on d floor so fast n effortlessly. When it ended wit the quiet session, I saw a blaze of bright light n felt such intense love that give me such bliss and I cried cos I was so touched n thankful that God let me experience this bliss. I said again n again Thank You to God and then followed by quiet session n then laughter. All in all it took me about 1 hour 20 min for the whole session despite cutting 3 steps.

I don't do guru pooja in d evening cos it takes 8 min and also it got me into immediate meditation which then may not jive wit Shoonya. I am glad God and Sadhguru directed me to Brahma Nanda

I now found my evening meditation mode (1 hour 15 min);
1. Brahma Nanda
2. Shoonya
3. Shakit
4. Shambavi starting from Surka Kriya

Mornin (1 hour 15 min)
1. Guru Pooja
2. Suria Namaskara
3. Relaxing
4. Shakti.

Afternoon (20 min)
1. Shoonya.

Wow. looks like I am spending nearly 3 hours daily to be with the Source. Amazing, me who can't meditate and who can't sing and now sing Sanskrit, hated Suria Namaskara and now can do 7 cycle of Suria Namaskara and can spend tons of time doing meditation. The only exception is m a flowering/expressive meditator rather than quiet meditator. I accept that now. I am so blessed.

I know now God will give me what I need. There is no need to search, guidance comes whenever I need to (even if I didn't know I need it). Amen.