Desirelessness - ur desires fulfilled or not doesn't affect u.

Sept 24 Evening

Jus did shoonya and its nearly midnite.

I cried n prayed for my cousin sister. Didn't know that Doc has given her a 50 percent chance. I prayed for her wellness n I got the answer. She is fine. Thank you. Father.

Towards d end of shoonya, my previous hand thumping suddenly turns to clapping. It was not conscious. I only realised I was clapping when I hear d sound, by then I just let it be and I start to breathe to the sound/wave/wind made by the claps. This is something new

The Brahma Nanda really melt me and I cried cos I tot I was insensitive to my cousin and I felt guilty for not responding to her call for help. I shld have gone to see her, jus like my intuition tells me too. I didn't n I tot mom wld ask me, but she also didn't. I really wish to have been there wit her. Also tot I wasn't taking care of her feeling, asking her not to worry.

Then I tot of close friend, m like her. Not allowing others to have their feeling. Close friend is my mirror. I also tot of another friend emailing me abt d guy who want to meet up n she don't like it but then is worried if she is like him and etc, I asked her not to look into it. I too not acknowledging her feeling.

I cried and I felt guilty n tot no wonder friend didn't reply me n tot m not likeable n start to feel bad. And I was aware n I tot I don't wan to feel bad n in that instant an opposite tot came, "its ok, don't judge urself, u were using ur mind function n hence no feeling. Don't blame yourself. And its also ur strength cos u stay strong and positive when everyone is sad". So jus accept urself.

Sadhguru
We r seeing how to become free. So, this freedom will happen, not because you are trying to change the trajectories of your karmas this way or that way.
Let the karma go and bomb anything. You are not a part of it any more.
Once u know how to be aware, once the necessary awareness is there - to be away from your own body, to be away from your mind - has come to you, don't even bother abt ur karmas. Jus see how to deepen this awareness.

Soul - Father, jus now in brahma nanda, d first realisation on close being my mirror was good n the mind n emotion took over n I start to feel guilt n remorse. I was aware n said that I don't have to feel bad n I need not judge myself badly as I was operating thru minds. Its true its not likeable but its also my strength not to panic n be stable during such duress circumstances. I wonder if Sadhguru is referring to this awareness. I become aware n step away from my feeling.

I also tot of my osho card - 2 ways - prayer n meditation. M I mixing it up?? M I focus on manifestation, clearing my bad karma, wanting only good karma not right???

Sadhguru
Karma is not in terms of what u do and do not do. Karma is only in terms of what u desire to do.

Buddha said 'desirelessness' - He doesn't mean that people can exist without desire; he knows that without desires, there is no existence.
You being 'desireless', means you have no identification wit ur desires, your desires are only about what is needed. You have no personal identity with the desires that u play with. The desires are not about you anymore. Your desires fulfilled or not doesn't affect u.

Once that awareness is there, there is no karmic bondage for that person.
Whatever he does, even if he fight a war, there is no karma for him becos he has no desire to do anything like that. Its not coming out of hate or love for something. Its is just coming because simply, that's the way.

Isha - simply accepting, accepting everything is desirelessness. It does not mean u become still and u become incapable of activity or anything like that. It is just that, once u r truly accepting what is there, u r not identified with anything. Everything is there the way it is, do whatever u can do abt it. That's all there is. You can be deeply involved with everything, but still not identified with it anymore.

The karma can be in body, energy or mind. But once ur awareness comes to a certain point, all this is happening separately from you.

In shoonya, do u see, the mind is happening separately and u r happening separately. Whatever noise ur mind makes, it has no impact on you. You are free.

Soul - jus now we r tot to put hand in certain way n I never tot of lifting it up ever, even to wipe my sneeze. But today, without me stopping or activating, d hand suddenly lift up to clap. Jus like me clapping on my body after Shakti.
Why do I wan to clap???
Once your awareness