"Who cares" - my tot exactly on my 'goodness'

Father, finally I see the benefits
1. The Universe getting things I want
2. No longer attached to office/work/people/achievement
3. No longer attached to my role as Counsellor
4. No longer withstand Close friend's preaching mode.
5. Realising I was swimming with my mind instead of body. Jus focus on d sensation of swimming, my body will take care of me. (Mmm, I guess I was also using my mind when I was being petted. Yea, don't think focus on sensation)
6. Opening up to others abt Isha.

The osho resolution card. Yday I couldn't relate cos I was still facin Close friend issue n now its resolved, I saw it.

Intensity.
U hav to find ur innermost core on ur own, with no guide, no guiding scriptures. It is a dark night, but with intense fire of enquiry you are bound to come to the sunrise.
Everybody who has burned with intense inquiry has found the sunrise. Others only believe.
When u act with the intensity of the Knight of Fire, it is likely to create ripples in the waters around u. Some will feel uplifted and refreshed by ur presence, others feel threatened or annoyed. But the opinion of others matter little, nothing can hold u back right now.

Soul - I found it. I hav been in my inner journey since 1997 and alas I found my sunrise. I am now confident.
Its been 1 year and finally I open up n share abt Isha yoga. Wil fulfill my Isha promoter. Nearly sms all d people I cld think of.
Yeap, jus continue. I found isha yoga n its great.

Afternoon
Osho
Whenever death is close by, u become aware. And whenever there is love, u bloom.
Alone, love will take u into hallucinations, dreams, fantasies.
Alone, death will make u frightened that u will shrink.
Death and love, both are needed together.
If u allow urself to experience both death n love, u will experience.

Soul - death meant tears and love meant laughter.

Mmm, of all the sms send, got some response, but quite poor though.

Osho
Salvation is here, becos salvation is thru experience. Thru experiencing life as deeply, as intensely, as passionately as possible. Virtue arise out of that passionate living.

The do-gooder is not a good person and the good person is never a do-gooder. The good person is one whom good follows him jus like his shadow. He doesn't intend to do it, no intention to serve anybody, but his life become a service. It comes effortlessly.

The disciple keenly wrote to his Master of his progress
- all my action, even most trivial, are profound manifestation of spirituality
- as I write to u, I sit in an estatic state of timeless bliss

All of which the Master jus said yep, on track. Then after that there were no more update progress n Master has to write to disciple for update
- disciple replies - "who cares", and the Master laughed aloud and was glad, for this was real spiritual progress

Soul - this is exactly how I feel now. I don't care abt my spiritual progress. I don't care if I m behaving lovinglu or not, honestly or not. That's why I now seldom ponder abt my action or behaviour. I used to agonise n worry if I m behaving in line, ie lovingly or not, honestly or not, cleverly or not. That's why I told off Close friend for sermonising. I don't care anymore. Why is she evaluating me when I don't even evaluate myself. Who cares if I volunteer or be loving. Who cares if I don't have caring feeling for the office people.

I don't even care abt the meditation. I don't care if I don't do the 2 times fixed 40 days. I jus do when I want to. I don't care to monitor my spiritual devt. I meditate cos I enjoy it and I meditate cos I can see the benefit. Also I meditate cos I wan to fasten my desired manifestation.

Osho
Spirituality is not a sensational experience - it is maturity, it is let-go, it is becoming desire-less. Nothing is really expereinced. You r left alone and there is no object in ur consciousness, consciousness is pure like mirror and nothing is reflected in it.

Desirelessness is satisfied desire. When desire disappear, there is contentment. And desires cannot disappear unless u have made love to God. No other experience is goin to satsify u.

A silent mind, or a no-mind, is truth
All search outside is goin to lead u from one lie to another lie.
Let thoughts disappear. When u have started experiencing a little bit of truth inside u, only then u will be able to recognise the master.

When the disciple is open, some vibe flows from the master into the disciple. They are bridged. Great music arise - becos it is the most harmonious phenomenon in the world.
The meeting between the master and the disciple is between 2 souls - it is the deepest love possible
The master does not giv u anything, he simply gives u ur own being. He gives that which u already have. He takes away ur fear, ur doubts in ur possibility.

Kabir says this;
When the Guest is being searched for, it is the intensity of the longing for the Guest that does all the work.
Look at me, says Kabir - u will see a slave of that intensity