My family finally know m doing meditation

Sept 27

Yday, I meditated shoonya at the place. I m no longer so afraid of showing my bliss. Just now while sitting for yean prayer session, I jus tot of close my eyes to follow d proceeding. Then I found myself going into meditation mode. After a while I was swaying my body n head. Both mom and aunt called me. Mum is funny and asked if I seen my dead cousin, Y. I told her nope.

Aunt asked me what do I see n why m I laughing. I told her m jus happy. L said that Aunt's younger son can chant naturally for a first timer, whereas L has been doing it for years. Her son is a natural n spiritually inclined. I shared that its d way wit me too, its so natural for me.

Father, I asked why? How? Could I have done anything? The more I see, I should have seen death is coming. Cousin sister who is usually fearful was also 'black out' into not fearing, then perhaps death was calling her.

I also tot of me telling her that there is a long journey ahead n she has to fight. I tot if I had scared her n she didn't wan to fight anymore.
Also me n mom couldn't go to see her today. Why? Could we have made a difference?

She is always fighting for space to breathe. Yet, pregnancy clashed wit sis in laws both time and then death also clash. I guess she couldn't fight the battle n decided to opt out n came next time.

I tot abt me, feeling guilty. Perhaps I shld have been more considerate. Not looking into her feeling. M like close friend. But at least this time, I can give compassion to the husband, which I think no one is doing.

Sadhguru
The moment u carry the past n future, u become a donkey. Carrying the burden, there is no way to live intelligently.
Much love n compassion is needed. But when u r burdened, compassion can't come through.

When you are so light that nothing matters, only then you can truly be compassionate.
Love and compassion flow out of a person only when there is no sense of burden.

What u called love, has become a burden, which is not at all.

You can taste love and compassion in your life, only when you are in this moment, absolutely without any burden.