You must first give in order to receive

Sept 28
Today cousin's friend drop by. He said my cousin is a nice gal. I said nice gal died young. I don't believe in being nice. Actually her lesson is to be assertive.
I m glad I took off, or else no one here to accompany her.
Aiyah, I hav been havin tot of Funeral parlour for past 1 mth, I tot its becos of art exhibition, meeting my partner, little did I know that is for my cousin funeral proceeding.

Now that I am here, no tot of going to the Art Gallery

Expect a miracle
If you want to find love, you need to notice and connect with that love. Anything that you like to receive, you must first give of freely. Being grateful serves as a reminder, as a force of love and abundance. Even if something at the time doesn't seem "right", appreciate it and assume its bringing you some sort of gift that in the end you will indeed be great

Sept 30 (out from closet _ yoga path)
Father, now d tot of Funeral parlour is actually abt cousin's death, I find myself feeling guilty for not acting on it. On d plus point, is d intuition is getting more.

I guess I may hav to expand my horizon. Yday don't want to sleep n tot of d korean drama, d guy love d gal so much, wishing m her. Then a tot came, its jus an escape tot, I jus don't wan to think abt work.

Tot of me and nature house owner, don't need those dramas, when we meet each other, we jus connect, n know we wan to be together.
Of cos, m wondering what's next.

The plus point is that m sharing my yoga meditation. Alas, I dared to open up so all my relatives n family is aware of my yoga meditation. For this m real glad. I am out of d closet.

So, today, I jus did d guru pooja, suria namaskara and shakti chalana while d maid was sleeping still. That itself is a major transformation. So, will focus on that. As for me being wrong abt cousin, perhaps her time is here n there is nothing I can do.

Her card is 4 heart. She wan a family of her own but married into a very big traditional family, n becos she is afraid to cause a rift, stay silent n since she cannot get the family she wants, she jus leave.

Expect a miracle

Martha Graham
There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action. It is not ur business to determine how good it is, nor how it compares with other expression. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open.

You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You jus have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivates you. Keep the channel open.

By being still and opening to an inner truth, you have awakened the spirit of transformation.
Trust divine timing. It is vital that u understand that everything has its time, everything has its place.

Soul - a very timely reminder, I need it. I don't know what next but I only know that I will continues on d kriyas and suria namaskara.
I admit I don't know. But I don't know but there is no more resistance on my yoga path. All my questions answered. And I already come out from closet.

Expect a miracle
Consider ur partner may now be unravelling himself from whatever entanglements he is in. Your partner could very well be on his way to you, but details unbeknowst to you must be tended to.
And consider ur own soul's timing, its ur own readiness in being in a relationship.
You are ever-evolving and your soul knows when that evolution should include a partner. You might have more growing or self-searching to do before making a union.
In the scheme of development, certain things have to take place, such as your ability to accept something great, so it doesn't shock the system and get rejected.

Be patient, let the fruit grows, let the seed grow into flowers, let nature take its course.

Mantra - my partner comes at the perfect time and in the perfect way.

Soul - now I knew why I focused on d scene, its a beginning. Mmm, I admit I m more ready now than a mth ago. I have come out of d closet on my yoga path n hence can open up to my ptnr too. I am able to asserts my feeling/wants wit brother/sister/mother, n that means I can assert wit my partner too. As to I am completely ready, I am not sure.

Expect a miracle
Keep ur spiritual devt to urself. To introduce to the outside world too soon would expose the creation to negative and confusing energy, a vulnerable environment and dissipating influences. You and only you will know when it is time to introduce to the world this new way of being.

Soul - yeap, when I was ready to unfold my yoga meditation, the opportunity present itself even without me asking for it.

So, funeral parlour - a place that I hav open up to my family and relatives that I am now doing meditation.

Expect a miracle
Chloe was a very powerful woman in mnay ways and I think her friends felt that the one thing they had over her - and remember, this is unconscious - was her inability to master relationships. So they felt threatened and began to deflate Chloe's hope, enthusiasm and faith in Grace. These being her very good friends, she listened. Chloe begin to doubt herself and what she achieved. It was hard for her to maintain her energy and sureness in the face of reasonable doubt.
Don't be surprised if some people drop out of your life. Your friends may not like it when yoy change becos ur light will expose the darkness they may still be attached to.
When u make changes on the inside, it is only natural that changes will take place in every area of ur life. I wld urge u to jus roll with it, things will find their balance and harmony will soon be in place.

Soul - tot of me and close friend. The difference is I am sure of my yoga path.
Father, my work doesn't excite me but it pays d bills n give me security. And it led me to yoga path n it allows me to flourish. So, m thankful for that.