Friday, August 19, 2011

Cosmic Lesson (77) - wavering of ending (9)

Aug 3

Suddenly tot of Osho Issue - Moments. I only had moments tot of Z. So, why bothered about it? The mind still runs but I need not be worried or ponder about it.

The Issue
Fighting
Its time to stop fighting. There is so much love available to u if u just let it in. Start by forgiving urself, u r worth it.

Soul
Yeap, I need not have internal fight about Z. I need not worry. My partner will be here.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
To find a healing outlet for this potential explosion. It is essential to find a way to release whatever tensions and stresses might be building in u now.

Soul
Only thing I tot of was me wanting Z or perhaps I just wanted the physical part.
I know I have replaced it with eating. I have gained some weight. But today, I was just not keen.

3. External influence of which u r aware
Postponement
Although she would like to move through the frame .. She can't quite manage to do it. There is still so much 'what if" activity in his mind.
The only result of postponing is a dull and depressing feeling of incompletion and still. The relief and expansiveness u will feel once u put aside all the dithering tots that r preventing u from

Soul
"What if" Z loves me. Actually he didn't call me once after our breakup cos I am not in his mind.

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