I am supposed to move..but where? (5)

Aug 14

Father, mine was a fast track programme. I faced my Cosmic Lesson, Seven of Spades in Z and this year face Seven of Spades in Pluto.

But I am fine, this is my journey to realise my dream of Self Mastery.
As Ekhart Tolle said Mastery is when u realised u r both human and a being.
No wonder Sadhguru said there is no separation between materiality and spirituality. Its a matter of choice, a matter of time adjustment.
My weight has gone down a bit. I like my body. Like the china colleague said I looks fine despite such regular big eating. I already have my fill.

Father, my eyes are beautiful.

I had some tots of Z. I just nip it with, "its simply over".

I also acknowledged my body need for physical release. I wonder if I should go back to massages.

Just browsing through my this week Osho cards;

External
Traveling
When this card appears, it indicates a time of movement and change. It may be a physical movement from one place to the next or an inner movement from one way of being to another. It also reminds us to accept and embrace the new. This attitude of openness and acceptance invites new friends and experiences into our lives.

Soul
The initiative by V on me joining him is an opening. But this time, there is no push factor. Infact, when he asked me, I said I need my 4 days week and he said can be discussed. I have already decided I didn't want to leave current company because of the 4 days week.

What is needed for resolution?
Clinging to the past
What gone is gone! Don't cling to the past memories, don't cling to the future hopes, imagination and plans. Clinging simply create misery. U will have to let go.

It is time to face up to the fact that the past is gone, and any effort to repeat it is a sure way to stay stuck in old blueprints that u would have already outgrown if u hadn't been so busy clinging to what u have already been through. Take a deep breath, put the box down, tie it up in a pretty ribbon if u must and bid it a fond and reverent farewell.

Soul
Yea. My first tot was that V's proposal sounds good especially with the 4 days week. Then negative tot came in. Worry that I need to face challenges such as money and etc in new company. But I immediately struck it off, that's in the past. I am over challenges and doesn't need it to prove my worthiness anymore. And God doesn't asked from me either. Furthermore, I no longer need to have suffering to grow.

Things are flowing.

5. The understanding
Silence
The energy of the whole has taken possession of u. U r possessed, u r no more, the whole is.
Time changes, the world goes on changing, but the experience of silence, the joy of it, remains the same. That is the only thing u can rely upon, the only thing that never dies. It is the only thing that u can call ur very being.

Soul
That's my tot. It no longer matter. I will face whatever is needed. And no matter what happens, I can connect to my source of Joy.