North Node in Taurus - no more upheaval

Jul 23

North node in Taurus
Roots, stability and endurance
After vast experience with upheaval, the Taurus NN is ready to put roots. Ownership becomes more and more attractive as time goes on, since she wants to settle down and dig into experience without being force to deal with destructive elements sweeping through and demolishing what she creates.
Steadiness and endurance are latent talents unfolding and excitement is no longer always connected to crisis and change.

Soul
Yea, that's why I don't want to settle with Z. His offer is tempting but no stability. At long last I wanted one. I am now rooting for stability at work, which I want to flow to rships.

Just now tot of asking SL for her birthdate so that I can check her nodes. Then I stop myself, its the Scorpio in me that wants to be agony aunt, wants to feel needed. I need not prove my worth. Just because I don't have Z, I need not pick up others. I just want to be by myself.

North Node in Taurs
What do u truly value? What do u stand for in life? Something in u needs to know urself deeper and to prove urself worthy. The old path or habits that need to be left behind involves too much immersion in other people's dramas ... a helping hand is fine, but don't get embroiled in dramas that aren't yours.
The focus now needs to be on u and finding what u value and what nurtures u.

(Aug 7 - Father, just now tot of asking At for his birthdate so I can check out his Nodes for him. I then stop myself, again it is involving myself unnecessarily.)

Soul
Father, thanks for the reminder. I used to resent being called for help with others dramas. But when thing quiet down, I tend to ask for it. Guess its just fear of being unneeded, fear that I am not proving my worthiness, fear that I am not lovable, guilt that I have so much.


North Node in Taurus
This life is about finding that mystical sense of belonging to a Universe that is benevolent. No easy task!
Its a profound spiritual calling to find spirit in matter, and to find urself in "right relationship" with others.

Soul
Suddenly tot of my incessant need to help Z to raise his spiritual energy. Thinking that since he helped me with physical release, I have to help him with mental and spiritual matters.
Aiyah, its just a case of transferring my worth to him from physical to mental. I am proving my worth to him even if I cannot give him physically. I wanted us to continue our rship in another form. I was afraid of ending it completely.

Father, thanks for this wake up call. I really do have a need to be needed. No wonder I project it to C and H, the saviour mode. I too have it.

Father, I used to scold u for asking me to justify my existence. Alas, I now realised that it was not U. It was me who tot I had to prove my worth.

North Node in Taurus, South Node is Scorpio
Through previous incarnations, the soul acquired an overemphasis of energy in the area of over reliance on the resources and values of others. Driven by an intense desire to bond and merge with a partner, they have sacrificed their own needs and value systems as a means of empowering their partner and thereby receiving validation in return.

In order to heal this energy imbalance of the soul, a critical lesson for these individuals is to learn to empower themselves. They need to shift their focus from defining their self worth via validation from others to discovering and living in accordance with their own true needs, comfort zone and value system.

Soul
Yes, I went in with Z eventhough he wanted a fling and I wanted a relationship. But I went in knowing, there is something to be gained and I did. Once the benefits is received, my True Self broke it up.
But the old me still hold on. Well, just use the energy elsewhere.


North Node in Taurus, South Node is Scorpio
Developing a strong relationship with the natural/physical world can facilitate the healing process.
They need a calming, re-energizing and balancing effect which will help dispel their unconscious need for intense, high adrenaline crisis situations in their lives.

Soul
My path is self mastery, supported by meditation.

North Node in Taurus, South Node is Scorpio
A critical lesson that needs to be learnt in this lifetime is to let go of past life behavioural patterns of exchange relationships. The stronger NN Taurus individuals become in supporting themselves and defining their self-worth via their own value system, the more likely they are to attract a spiritually fulfilling partnership with someone who is also self-empowered.

Soul
I am slowly but surely defining my values. I already know I am a lovely person and deserve a lovely partner.