Self Reliance is equivalent to Self Mastery (2)

Jul 18

Father, this morning I woke up and tot its not that Z doesn't miss me or doesn't want me, but he cannot offer me what I want. Being such a determined person, he doesn't want to initiate something he cannot deliver, he doesn't want to hurt me.

(Aug 5 - On Jul 20 I called him to clear the air and we were quickly comfortable as if the break up didn't happen. To my amazement, he asked for our next meetup. I told him that its not going to happen again. We will just remain as friends.)

Father, today practice is different. My body is quite nimble during suria, shakti and shambavi. I was connected. But when it reach plough back, the top back a bit stiff. No laughter but just a quiet peace. Tots of Z comes and goes and I just wave them off by telling myself I am not my mind nor my body.

Father, thank U for the financial abundance to create my eyesight with spectacles. The power is not fully back but at least my eyes are fine, good recovery.

Self Reliance - RWE
I must be myself. I cannot break myself any longer for u, or u.
If u can love me for what I am, we shall be happier.
If u cannot, I will still seek to deserve that u should
I will not hide my aversions or tastes.
If u r true, but not in the same truth with me, cleave to ur companions;
I will seek my own.
U will soon love what is dictated by ur nature as well as mine;
and if we follow the truth, it will bring us out safe at last.

Soul
Yeap, I follow it.

Self Reliance
Our sympathy is just as base. We come to them who weep foolishly and sit down and cry for company, instead of imparting to them truth and health in rough electric shock, putting them once more in communication with their own reason.

Soul
That's what I do.

Self Reliance
The secret of fortune is joy in our hands. Welcome evermore to gods and men is the self-helping man. For him, all doors are flung wide. Him all tongues greet, all honors crown, all eyes follow with desire. Our love goes out to him and embraces him, because he did not need it.

Soul
Amen, that's my aim, self mastery.

Self Reliance
Insist on urself; never imitate. Ur own gift u can present every moment with the cumulative force of a whole life's cultivation; but of the adopted talent of another, u have only an extemporaneous, half posession.

Soul
Will remember that instead of worrying I run out of things to write. Besides I have a full time job that I do well.

Self Reliance
A political victory, a rise of rents, the recovery of ur sick or the return of ur absent friend, or some other quite external event, raises ur spirits, and u think good days are preparing for u.
Do not believe it.
Nothing can bring u peace but triumph of principles.