I am supposed to move..but where?

Aug 10
Father, did practice. I was focused on suria but it was not effortless. Shakti and Shambavi was fine. Towards the end, my plough back was beautiful.

1. Issue
Harmony
Listen to ur heart, move according to ur heart, whatsoever the stake; A condition of complete simplicity costing not less than everything.
Let urself be softer and more receptive now, because an inexpressible joy is waiting for u just around the corner.

Soul
Just now when I was driving I was caught in awe by the lovely, vibrant grass. Then when I did a short rest in the car, laughter spill out when I close my eyes. Father, my joy is near the surface already. I can connect whenever my eyes is closed. And during samyama (open eyes) I can also connect sometimes.

This morning I look at myself and I like what I saw. I like my body, my face. I look good. So, even if people said I put on weight, I am fine.

2. Internal Influence
Stress
We create stress with the idea that without us, nothing will happen - especially in the way we want it to! Go for a walk, buy some flowers, anything unimportant will do. Just put urself out of that monkey's reach.

Soul
Been getting this card last week also. Not sure, but the car was bang twice. These week days, I just rest.

3. External influence of which u r aware
Traveling
Life is a continuity always and always. There is no final destination it is going towards. Just the pilgrimage, just the journey in itself is life, not reaching to some point, no goal - just dancing and being in pilgrimage, moving joyously, without bothering about any destination.

When this card appears, it indicates a time of movement and change. It may be a physical movement from one place to the next or an inner movement from one way of being to another. It also reminds us to accept and embrace the new. This attitude of openness and acceptance invites new friends and experiences into our lives.

Soul
I know Z is over. For him, its either lover or not and he won't be a friend. I must remember journey of rship doesn't just end here and just proceed to walk. I am open to better rship and I am more ready than before.

I am now doing my Passion list again. I can see some changes, that's good.

(Aug 22 - now I know its actually not over. Its moving again with him and this time not worrying about the outcome.)

4. What is needed for resolution?
Clinging to the past
What gone is gone! Don't cling to the past memories, don't cling to the future hopes, imagination and plans. Clinging simply create misery. U will have to let go.

It is time to face up to the fact that the past is gone, and any effort to repeat it is a sure way to stay stuck in old blueprints that u would have already outgrown if u hadn't been so busy clinging to what u have already been through. Take a deep breath, put the box down, tie it up in a pretty ribbon if u must and bid it a fond and reverent farewell.

Soul
Father, I was holding on to Z because I was clinging to a future with him as I saw Queen of Diamond in his Result if he overcomes his Five of Clubs in Pluto. Firstly, he may not be able to overcome. Secondly, it could just him being a good businessman or even philanthropist as he got money. Nothing to do with me.

5. The understanding
Silence
The energy of the whole has taken possession of u. U r possessed, u r no more, the whole is.
Time changes, the world goes on changing, but the experience of silence, the joy of it, remains the same. That is the only thing u can rely upon, the only thing that never dies. It is the only thing that u can call ur very being.

Now is the time to come home to urself. The understanding and insights that come to u in these moments will be manifested later on, in a more outgoing phase of ur life.