Faith is the light that shine darkness away (4)

Jul 20

Tot of my attachment to Z. Not sure why so strong. Could this be my past Karma. My south node in scorpio. Perhaps instead of thinking of lost love, this is just a past regret or sadness that I need to disentangle and to know I am fine. Perhaps this is the fear of abandonment at its root and my role is to let it be.

Father, I knew Z still wants me back and he deliberately modify the phrase, hoping that I would comment on it. He is a strategist. The old me would have reacted but the new me taking a wait and see.

Self Reliance
Better be a nettle in the side of ur friend than his echo. The condition which high friendship demands is ability to do without it. There must be very two before there can be very one.
Let it be an alliance of two large formidable natures, mutually beheld, mutually feared, before they yet recognise the deep identity which beneath these disparities unites them.

Soul
Z is strong and proven. I am not yet, let me be strong too. Anyway, just remember my attachment to him is remnants from past lives and hence I need not worry.

Self Reliance
The higher the style we demand of friendship, of course the less easy to establish it with flesh and blood.

We walk alone in the world. Friends such as we desire are dreams and fables. But a sublime hope cheers ever the faithful heart, that elsewhere, in other regions of the universal power, souls are now acting, enduring and daring, which can love us and which we can love.

Our impatience betrays us into rash and foolish alliances, which no God attends.

By persisting in ur path, though u forfeit the little, u gain the great. U become more pronounced. You demonstrate yourself, so as to put urself out of reach of false relations, and u draw to u the first-born of the world - those rare pilgrims whereof only one or two wander in nature at once, and before whom the vulgar great show as specters and shadows merely.

Soul
A msg for me to be patient. To stay on course and not to worry that my partner won't come. Have faith that it will. Such irony, Z is Seven of Spades, which is my Long Range in Destiny. So, looks l need to let go of him and concurrently stay hopeful that my real partner will come to me.

Sadhguru
If at all there is any struggle in ur life, it is because u identify urself with ur mind. All the suffering u go through is in ur mind. If u distance urself from the mind, it is the end of suffering.
Now while u r meditating, there is a distance between u and ur mind, and u feel peaceful. The problem is that the moment u open ur eyes, u r again stuck with ur mind.
If u meditate every day, a day will come when u open ur eyes, and u can still experience the mind is there and u r here. This is the end of suffering. When u r no longer identified with ur body and mind, u will be in touch with the source of Creation within u. Once this happens, Grace happen.

That's means ur whole karmic bag - ur past or unconscious mind - has been kept aside. It cannot have any influence over u. Once the past has no influence over u, the life becomes a huge potential.

Every breath becomes such a tremendous possibility in ur life, because the past is not playing any role in ur existence here now. If u sit here, u r absolute life. Life become effortless.

Soul
I am motivated on Samyama.
Yea, these continuous tots on Z is remnants from the Past. They don't have a hold on me anymore.

Yea, I did and the tots passed through. Just need to remember I am not my tots and true Tot doesn't go into projection.

Got an idea for Isha. To do write up in the newspaper, mention abt Sadhguru visit and issue a free invite to do Isha Kriya. And we can do it at Sathsang as the place looks inviting.

Eight of Clubs
This the card of mental power, the ability to focus one's mind on a goal and see it through to a successful conclusion.