I had enough of suffering

Jul 26 Aft

Just finished shoonya. It was nice and I was laughing throughout. I felt well rested now. There are some tots of Z and this time I can ignored some of them. I just said these tots are not my choice.

Father, one of the things I realised recently is that I have chosen to be agony aunt for all my friends.

Earlier, I also send the isha link to the coordinator. I am clear that I volunteer for sathsang guide. Other things let others do. Just now receive a help call from Isha member. I didn't ponder too much and just send it. Father, I don't need to prove my worthiness by being a saviour. Guess I am what u called a hidden saviour. Anyway, I am a lovely person.

1. Issue
Existence
Home is not a physical place outside the world, but an inner quality of relaxation and acceptance. The stars, the rocks, the trees, the flowers and etc - all are our brothers.

Soul
I am connecting with water, with trees, with grass.
I am also grounding myself by awareness of my body via breathe or tots watching.

2. Internal influence
Creativity
Whatsoever u do, if u do it joyfully, if u do it lovingly, if ur act of doing is not purely economical, then it is creative.
If u have something growing out of it within u, if it gives u growth, it is spiritual, it is creative, it is divine.

Soul
I am clearing my other outlets to focus on my personal project. I am doing 7thunder and writing.

3. External influence of which u r aware
Completion
The last piece of jigsaw puzzle is being put in place, the position of the third eye, the place of inner perception.
Even in the ever changing flow of life, there are moments in which we come to a point of completion. We are able the perceive the whole picture, the composite of all the small pieces that have occupied our attention for so long.
What has been absorbing ur time and energy is now coming to an end. In completing, u will be clearing the space for something new to begin. Use this interval to celebrate both.

Soul
I am completing my hidden saviour mode. I am completing justifying my worth.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Beyond illusion
The space between the two eyes has opened, revealing the lotus of spiritual unfoldment and the rising sun of awareness and meditation is born.
Look within for what is real. Drop ur opinionated mind and move inside. Then u can relax into ur deepest truth.

Soul
Perhaps this is the sense of grounding I am feeling.

5. Resolution
New Vision
When u open to the ultimate, immediately it pours into u. U r no longer an ordinary human being - u have transcended. U r no longer separate, u have found ur roots.
By allowing all of life colours to penetrate us, we become more integrated.



Jul 26 Ev
Father, I don't like my blog name anymore. I now think suffering is enough. I suffered because I resisted. I was ignorant.

Even now, my mind drama on Z is due to resistance. Only thing is I didn't act on it, so suffering is limited. I just find it irritating that he occupy my mind so much. He doesn't deserve it or I deserve better.