Self Reliance is equivalent to Self Mastery (3)

Jul 18 Aft

Did my shoonya, it was joyful despite my outwardly judgement on myself. I miss him loads. Anyway, don't be too hard on myself. Guess its because I knew its mutual and he still waits for me.

Self Reliance
Every soul is by this intrinsic necessity quitting its whole system of things, its friends and home and laws and faith, as the shell-fish crawls out of its beautiful but stony case, because it no longer admits of its growth, and slowly form a new house.
In proportion to the vigor of the individual, these revolutions are frequent, until in some happier mind, they are incessant, and all worldly relations hang very loosely about him, becoming, as it were, a transparent fluid membrane through which the living form is seen, and not, as in most men, of no settled character, in which the man is imprisoned. Then there can be enlargement, and the man of today scarcely recognises the man of yesterday.

Such should be the outward biography of man in time, a putting off of dead circumstances day by day, as he renews his raiment day by day.

But to us, in our lapsed estate, resting, not advancing, resisting, not cooperating with the divine expansion, this growth comes by shocks. We cannot part with our friends. We cannot let our angels go. We do not see that they go out only so that archangels may come in. We are idolaters of the old.
We do not believe in the riches of the soul, in its proper eternity and omnipresence. We do not believe there is any force in today to rival or recreate that beautiful yesterday.

We cannot stay amid the ruins. Neither will we rely on the new; and so we walk ever with reverted eyes, like those monsters who look backwards.

Soul
Same msg with Personality vs Individuals.
Let me set myself free from Z. He is occupying himself with his studies and business and I too can occupy myself. Let me release him for something better.
Like Anita said, window shopped first. Don't buy the first thing I see.
If it is meant to be, we will be and I need not ponder about it. I believe I am meant for a great rship.

Self Reliance
And yet the compensations of calamity are made apparent to the understanding also. The sure years reveal the deep remedial force that underlies all facts, for it commonly operates revolutions in our way of life.
The man or woman who would have remained a sunny garden-flower, with no room for its roots and too much sunshine for its head, by the falling of the walls and the neglect of gardener, is made the banyan of the forest, yielding shade and fruit to wide neighbourhoods of men.

Soul
After so long, got an 'approval' from H on my writing. She said it is a very good effort on my part.
So, just use my sexual energy to focus on writing. Like D said sexual energy is creative energy.