I am freed from my Z - I am fine

Jul 15

Father, did my practice and it was fine.
Now at the Eye specialist centre ready to do lassik. At first, they wanted me to do additional insertion of pin hole, which cost another RM5k. But somehow, luckily, I mentioned about me having RA and they said I cannot do it. Thank U. Things are flowing my way.

Yday I saw Z and I am happy he is having a good time. I just realised that yesterday there was no guys and he was holding the fort. He actually enjoyed it. He likes the popularity. I wish he can show his true self, the self-made man that he is. If u don't know him, u may think him superficial. I saw him talking to a gal and I gave him space. Surprisingly, I was fine. Looks like it really ended well for both of us. We only need to meet once a month. But I admit, I do feel care for him and did tot of him.

The Power of Intention
When u truly know what it is to love, as you're loved by your Source, u won't experience the kind of pain you did in the past when ur love was unnoticed or rejected.

It will, instead, be similar to how a friend described her experience of choosing to leave a relationship;"My heart was broken, but it felt like it was stuck in the open position. I felt love flowing toward this person who couldn't love me the way I wanted to be loved, even as I left that relationship to seek the love I felt inside of me. It was strange to feel the pain of my broken heart, and at the same time feel its openness. I kept thinking, My heart's broken, but it's broken open. I shifted to an entirely new level of loving and being loved. The relationship I'd dreamed of having manifested 18 months later.

Soul
That's how I feel about Z. I told him he is a diamond, just not my diamond. I am not angst at him for not loving me the way I want to. I moved out of the rship because I deserved to be loved the way I want to. Also, his rejection of my love no longer reflects my lovability. Despite a short 1 week since we met and he still expressed that he is waiting for me to come back to him, I was able to distance myself.
I was happy for him. I wish him all the best. He deserved to be loved. He will always be in my prayer of thanks. He cleared my past and opened the physical door for me.

The Power of Intention
You are love. You emanated from pure love. You are connected to this Source of love at all times. Think this way, feel this way and you will soon act this way.
And all that u think, feel and do will be reciprocated in exactly the same fashion.
Believe it or not, this principle of the right person showing up has been in place forever. Its only ur ego that's kept you from seeing it clearly.

Soul
This is a year of faith.
One thing I know is my lovability is intact and is dependent on me.
Now I just need to expand it further. A tot came, since ur lovability depends on u, u need not be worried about how others react to ur website.

The Power of Intention
Viewing the past as a play in which all characters and all entrances and exits were scripted by ur Source and was what u attracted at the time, frees u from the low energies of guilt, regret and even revenge.

Soul
I already accepted my Past.

The Power of Intention
A Course in Miracles; "Infinite patience produces immediate results."
To be infinitely patient means to have an absolute knowing within u that u r in vibrational harmony with the all-creating force that intended u here. U r, in fact, a co-creator of ur life.

Soul
I already know I am co-creator. Patience I am learning.
Yday in sathsang, I just drop my worries and feel safe that the others will do their part. And I just do my meditation and feel great.

The Power of Intention
The immediate result that you will receive from ur infinite patience is a deep sense of peace. You will feel the love of the creation process, you will stop making incessant demands and u will start being on the lookout for exactly the right person.

Soul
I am already on track.

A Course in Miracles
No one can ask another to be healed. But he can let himself be healed and thus offer the others what he has received. Who can bestow upon another what he does not have? And who can share what he denies himself?

Soul
Suddenly I tot I am ready to read The Teachers manual in A Course in Miracles. I have never tot I could do it but I think now I can.

Suddenly a tot about me able to accept Z not loving me the way I want to. It is because I no longer take it personally.
If I did take it personally, first response is cannot take it and hence firstly either try to hold on and compromise ourself or secondly try to made the other the bad person.