Being sensible is letting go

Jul 25 aft
Suddenly tot of my sharing with S.
I told her my fear of letting go of friendship that is no longer doing me good.
I have a small circle of friends as I don't let people in easily.
With L and S, they are the ones who keeps on approaching me.
In the end, I let them in out of gratitude.
But alas, they are not 'good' for me.
They both seeking approval from me and I can't give.
I avoided them and yet them come running.
Finally once they see I am truly avoiding, they go on attack mode.
Still I will let them be in my life.
Because I am fearful of being rejected, and so I seldom ever reject any friends. I have not rejected anyone the way I did L.
The person has to be truly atrocious for me to reject.
Alas learn to let go.
As I knew previously both Y and Z are good at letting go. Once they decided the rship is off, they switched me off completely. It was 'hell' for me facing my fear of unlovability. Thinking their exclusion is a reflection of me. Alas, they just being sensible, if they can't continue with me, don't prolong it.

So, the same that I am being sensible with S and L.
Have done it with S and now L.
Amen

Was updating my blog and saw this post in early July
North node in Taurus
Making judgement.
These folks are learning to stop destroying what others have built and instead focus on building what is important and valuable to themselves.
As they remain consistently true to their own values, they become less judgemental about others who have different values.
They also are highly judgemental of themselves and undermine their self worth. They often compare themselves to other people and feel jealous of what others have - this makes their lives complicated and much less happy!
For any of us, if what we are doing in our lives is making us happy, then we are on track. But the moment we compare ourselves, we lose.

Soul
So true..these days I don't ask why others do what they do...or why I don't do what others do...
Now I just focus on doing what I want to do...
No more judging or tearing others..just focus on building my own values..and hence Kailash and Sannidhi.
Mmm..a tot finally came..
Just as I love my annual retreat in ashram; me going for IE refresher, for monthly Sathsang..all these are platforms of raised energy. Because of my receptivity, I am attuned to raised energy...
The same as my visit to Kailash..is a space of raised energy..