Until you become aware, the ego will go on playing

Aug 5
Woke up groggy upon alarm. The muscle relaxant pill works as even the knee stiffness is minimal. Can't remember the last time I woke up without any stiffness or slight pain. Decided not to do hata yoga to enable my sprained back to rest.

Did Bhuta Shuddi and sang guru pooja. But was still sleepy despite a cold shower and hair wash.
Did one cycle of Surya kriya; not great can only touch both feet to ground for two mountain pose only. Looks like pre Angamardhana really makes difference.
Shakti was good, laughing at every cycle of Kapala Bhakti and ended with head shaking non stop and some clapping.
Shambavi was good too.

Got the spongy foot balls for my shoes. I m no longer apprehensive of Kailash. Got a feeling it will be easy for me as I got natural acclimatisation to altitude. Earlier my worry was on joints and since Y said it is less than 12 km walk. I be fine especially now got the sponge ball.

Now that there are no worries on the journey, mind start to embark  on the past. Recently much tots of Z. It is past.
No wonder this week Osho on Mind.

Really a period of Three of Diamonds in Mercury. So much tots.
And even the tot of balcony renovation came back. I waived it and this morning I m fine with my plan of keeping the divider wall. Morning do guru pooja and sadhanas in existing Shrine. Do Bhuta Shuddi in sannidhi place. Evening do my breathing and Shoonya at sannidhi place.
Instead of needing a combined place; I be having two different places for my sadhanas.


Life's mysteries
Unless you become aware, the ego will go on playing new games. The games will change; u may move from one prison to another prison cell, that's all but u will not get out of prison.
The only way to get out of prison is to be utterly alert. In that alertness u become centred. And that entering takes u into the very core of reality.

Soul
True.
At least today in Shakti. Was distracted by tots but no too long.
Shakti required focus and yet so easy to lose focus.

Life mysteries
Love is love only when it is meditative. Love is love only when there is great awareness from both sides. Two nows meeting, two heres meeting; two presence merging, melting into each other - then it is love and then it has spiritual quality to it.

Soul
Amen.


Life mysteries
Ur total state of mind has to be transformed, and that is the meaning of awareness.
U are in the past, in the future; that means you are in the mind. Come out of ur mind! Be in. The present, .... And when u are in the present, u are not part of the mind. Then each act has clarity, because u are a mirror. And there is no dust on the mirror because the there is no thinking going on.

Soul
Amen.

Life mysteries
Be alert, be aware!
Whatsoever u are doing, do it with such care, such meditativeness, that u are absolutely there, in it, involved. Ur presence is there - and that very presence brings an alchemical change. U will never repress, u will never sit on volcano. And the more u become aware, the more ur life will attain to silence, peace, love. They are by-products of awareness.