Meditation is to create the distance from ur tots

Jul 24 aft

Life mysteries by Osho
Meditation is witnessing is the beginning of meditation. Meditation is no-mind is rare completion of the pilgrimage. Witnessing is the method to reach the no-mind.
Once a man is in a state of no-mind, nothing contradicts him from his being. There is no power bigger than the power of no-mind. No harm can be done to such person. No-mind is absolutely a pure sky without any clouds.

Soul
Suddenly tot of Kailash.
Pure sky without clouds.
Anyway fear comes but I remind myself this is a spiritual process. Whatever happen will happen. Just like I sprained my ankle during first Samyama.
Anyway looking at the book, best be prepared. Also buying the closed sandals.

Life mysteries by Osho
How does watching lead to no mind?
Tots don't have their own life. They are parasites; they live on your identifying with them. When u say, 'I am angry', you are pouring energy into anger, because u are identified with anger.
But when u say, 'I am watching anger flashing on the screen of the mind within me', u are not giving any life, any juice, any energy to anger.
U will be able to see that because u are not identified, the anger is absolutely impotent, has no impact on u, does not change  u, does not affect u. It is absolutely hollow and dead. It will pass on and it will leave the sky clean and the screen of the mind empty.
Slowly slowly u start getting out of ur tots. That's the whole process of witnessing and watching.

Soul
This morning can see the tots of unfairness arise. But I didn't give in to my tots. I just be. What's important to me was my peace. I knew my boss is frustrated and my tots are reactive. That's all. I just decide not to follow. Amen.

Just now flashes of past with Z came. I didn't follow. I just ignored it

Life Mysteries.
Gurdjieff used to call it non-identification. U r simply standing aloof and away - indifferent, as if they might be anybody tots. U have broken ur connection with them. Watching needs a distance.  Only then u can watch them.
If u are identified, there is no distance, they are too close, u can't see. If tots are too close to u , u become impressed and coloured by ur tots; anger makes u angry, greed makes u greedy, lust makes u lustful, because there is no distance at all. They are so close that u are bound to think that u and ur tots are one.

Watching destroy this oneness with tots and crease separation. The more u watch, the bigger the distance. The bigger the distance, the less energy ur tots are getting from u. And they don't have any other source. Soon they start dying.

And once u start moving on the right path, ur blissfulness, ur beautiful experiences are going to become more and more deep, more and more wide, with new nuances.

Soul
Alas. I have been breathe watching for quite awhile. Last 2 days, I was able to open eyes and do Samyama.
Just need to persevere.