Osho tarot for Kailash

Aug 8 eve

This week Osho tarot. Would have done another reading if I got my lap top but I know this one still valid for next 2 weeks.

1. The Issue
Mind
The rubbish goes on moving in ur head; ur head goes on spinning and weaving - it keeps u occupied. The mind is constantly there, surround u like a cloud. With this cloud, u cannot know reality, u cannot attain to spiritual perception. This cloud has to be dropped. And it is just with ur decision to drop that it will disappear. U are clinging to it - the cloud is not interested in u, remember it.

2. Internal influence that you are unaware
Ordinariness
Sometimes it happens that u become one, in some rare moments, u forget ur split, ur schizophrenia; u relax. Or, moving in the Himalayas, seeing the virgin snow on the Himalaya peaks, suddenly a coolness surrounds u and u need not be false because there is no other human being to be false to. U fall together.
There is no need to wait for these moments. These natural moments can become ur natural life. U can perfectly at ease - because the whole question is of u doing ur action totally, enjoying, delighting in it.
The special gift u have to offer now is presented best by just taking things easily and simply, one step at a time.

3. External influence of which u are aware
Existence
U are not accidental. Existence needs u. Without u, something will be missing in existence and nobody can replace it. That's what gives you dignity, that the whole existence will miss u.
This gives u a tremendous joy, a fulfilment that u are related to existence and existence cares for u. Once u are clean and clear, u can see tremendous love falling on u from all dimensions.

Now is the time to look whether u are allowing urself to receive the extraordinary gift of feeling "at home" wherever u are. If u are, be sure to savour it so it can deepen and remain with u. If on the other hand, u have been feeling like the world is out to get u, its time to take a break 

Soul
Yes, my flu bug is to ask me to take a break. It has been a hectic two weeks of preparing for Kailash and finally got a whole day to rest before the flight tomorrow morning.

5. What's needed for resolution?
Beyond illusion
The capacity to doubt is the greatest blessings to humanity. Illusion does not exist. Reality exists. Maya is just in between.

The butterfly represents the outer, that which is constantly moving and that which is not real but an illusion. Behind the butterfly is the face of consciousness, looking inward to that which is eternal. The space between two eyes has opened, revealing the lotus of spiritual unfoldment and the rising sun of awareness.
 Through the rising of the inner sun, meditation is born. This card reminds us not to look outside for what is real, but to look within.
When we focus on externals, we too often get caught up in judgments - this is good, this is bad, I want this, I don't want that. These judgements keep us trapped in our illusions, our sleepiness, our old habits and patterns.
Drop ur opinionated mind and move inside. There, u can relax into ur own deepest truth, where the difference between dreams and reality is already known.


Soul
A tot came. What if my belief that I m unlovable because both Z and Y left me is not true. What if it a real blessing.
Yesterday chat with R was a surprise. Suddenly telling me her life, from her lack of career to marriage was a hindrance to spiritual longing. She said I m so blessed to be able to do what I do and to go to Kailash too. Everyone tells me that I m blessed and yet I can't see it.
What if they are right and I m wrong.
I may not have found external home in partner but I have found internal home with my shrine and sannidhi.
And now going to the greatest sannidhi of all, Kailash.
Mmm, Sadhguru said he is most comfortable in Kailash, he can just be himself, he is completely at home. The same will be for me.
My journey in Isha is like falling in love, natural unfoldment. Whatever that was meant for me, just happen even without me asking for it.
What if I just go with the flow; the flow of inner life vs external.

5. Resolution
Silence
The energy of the whole had taken possession of u. U are possessed, u are no more, the whole is. This moment, as the silence penetrates in u, u can understand the significance of it, because it is the same silence that Gautam Buddha experienced. The taste of silence is the same.
Time changes, the world goes on changing but the experience of silence, the joy of it, remains the same. This is the only thing that u can rely upon, the only thing that never dies. It is the only thing that u can call ur being.

The silent, mirror like receptiveness of a star filled night with a full moon is reflected  in the misty lake below. The face in the sky is deep in meditation, a goddess of the night who brings depth, peace and understanding. Now is a very precious time. It will be easy for u to rest inside, to plumb the depth of ur own inner silence to the point that it meets the silence of the universe.
There's nothing to do, nowhere to go and the quality of ur inner silence permeates everything that u do.
Seek out those who can resonates with ur silence or enjoy ur aloneness.
Now is the time to come home to yourself.
The understanding and insights that come to u in these moments will be manifested later on, in a more outgoing phase of ur life.

Soul
Again,,, home.