Gudi, Dhynalinga and Sadhguru's sannidhi has to be together as my complete Shrine

Aug 26
Yesterday, once the flame is lighted for Gudi and Dhynalinga, a flow of energy came. Immediately my head shakes non stop. Sat there for a while. I know that I cannot have a separate place for sannidhi.  All of them has to be together, complete.

Woke up with a dream of rat in my room at 3.45 am. Dragged myself to bathroom. Sat awhile in the toilet.  Finally shower.  Did Bhuta Shuddhi but unwilling to continue with practices.  So I just go to sleep and put alarm at 7 am.  I let my body decides.  If body is okay it will wake up earlier. Slept and Body woke up upon alarm.  Still bit groggy but jumped out of bed.
Not feeling great without sadhana but let body decides. I will not let sadhana be a chore.
Since no sadhana, I decide to have milk tea for breakfast instead of my normal hot lime juice.

Anyway, I recalled both V and Y also took a break from practices after Kailash. Will see.

Of Mystics and Mistakes
It is extremely important if we want to walk the spiritual path that we learn to keep the mind and emotion in a certain level of stability and let the rest of it go utterly crazy.  If madness does not happen, then there is nothing new happening; we have not broken anything. 
What we called "mad" is someone who has become different. He has crossed the barriers. Usually madness happens when he somehow breaks what u cannot break. When the logical part of u goes away, u are mad. And if that doesn't goes away, u will never know moments of ecstasy, u will never know moments of love, u will never know moments of utter peace.
If that part doesn't go away, u will not know meditation, u will not know dance, u will not know music.
U will only know body and mind.
If something beyond has to happen, somehow the logical thinking has to go.

When there is no logic, when there is nothing, everything flows through you. Whatever had to happen in this existence, it has to flow through u. U become the gateway. If u r willing, if u have the inclination, everything is within ur grasp.