Tired after Kailash

Aug 24
Feeling bit lethargic. Felt I lost it for my sadhanas.  I m not sure what I m feeling.  Just not sure where I m heading. 
Not sure if this Kailash trip is right for me.  But somehow things did fall in place.  I may not choose to go but the greatest sannidhi called.

Just light the flame of candles for both Dhynalinga yantra and Devi's pix. I can feel the soothing energy. Despite my resistance, the inner connection is there. 

I always said Journey with Isha is like falling in love.  Wonder if now I m falling out of love.

Few things in my mind.
1. The physical journey not worth the value paid; program is overrated.
2. The energy for Manasovar and Kailash is great but I can already feel the energy at ashram and at home, need not have to travel there.
3. My wish for my partner still remain unfulfilled.


Upon return, what I can see
1.  Experience in sadhana is more intense.
2. Me becoming more receptive.
3. Me losing interest in sadhana
4. Me losing interest in Sadhguru.
5. Me losing interest in Sannidhi


For the first time in Isha, I am falling out.  Finally understand what V meant when she said she just lost interest