Dilemma over trip to Kailash

Jul 24

Today got a not so good response from boss. She couldn't do her part and now said since I m in the loop; I should know. The old me said its not fair. The new me said she can be like that and maybe cos she felt unfairly treated as she was doing others job. Also she is on holiday too.
On my part I always give reminder. I never delayed.
Mmmm, just have to get this done.

Woke up at 3.45 am. Sprang out of bed. Feel better after the crying session and watch the Kailash YouTube. I may not know of Kailash reverence but I know of Sadhguru. I m making this pilgrimage with Sadhguru. That's all I need to hold on too. Not Kailash nor Manasovar.
For me I got no belief on sacred place. I need to experience. That's all I need.

Angarmadhana was quite okay. Lovely child posture. Breathing was fine but felt slight pain on my right knee.
Shakti was great. Laughter erupted at every cycle of Kapala Bhakti. Towards the end of Kapala Bhakti and end of Shakti head shaking non stop. Hands clapping too followed by some singing. These days Shakti more powerful than Shambavi.

Father, apart from my practice I m also energised by my writing and update blog. Yesterday 2 hour session keeps me grounded.

Life's mysteries.
Meditation is just being delighted  in ur own presence; meditation is a delight in ur own being.
Meditation is just to be, not doing anything - no action, no tot, no emotion. You just are. And it is sheer delight. From where does this delight comes when u are not doing anything? It comes from nowhere, or it comes from everywhere. It is uncaused, because the existence is made of the stuff called joy. It need no cause, no reason. Joy is ur innermost core.

And when one is happy for no reason, that happiness cannot be contained within urself. It goes on spreading to others, it becomes a sharing. U cannot hold it, it is so much, it is infinite. This is what compassion is.

Soul
Yes.
Recent trips to ashram. Others come up to me and said that when they hear my laughter of joy during meditation, it makes them happy and they too feel like laughing along. Yes, that's me Joy.