Sadhguru - awareness before sleep

Sept 7 aft

Life and death in one breathe
Just practice this tonight, the last moment of passing wakefulness to sleep, maintain ur awareness. See if u can, but u will see if u try to be aware, u will be awake. Only when u lose ur awareness, u will fall asleep. Just use this as a method everyday. Go at it with total perseverance and u will see in a few days u will get there, where at the final moment u are aware. Suddenly everything about ur life, the fundamental quality of ur life will change just by doing this one simple thing. Phenomenal thing u have never tot possible will become a reality if u can just manage a moment of awareness - that moment when u are transiting from wakefulness to sleep. If u do that, u will also transit from life to death in full awareness.

Soul
This is very difficult to do..can't even do it during Samyama.
Not even sure can do it now...but...

Mmm.for the past two months, hasn't been on the Osho tarot card.
Somehow printer doesn't work and so without the doc, I don't refer to it eventhough I still do weekly card.

The Issue
Flowering
The distinction between the grasses and the blossoms is the same as between you not knowing that you are a buddha, and the moment you know that you are a buddha. In fact, there is no way to be otherwise

Soul
Yes..at least I know when I am in and when I am out.
Even during sickness, I now turn to my shrine..
No longer believed that I am totally body.
Even when I had dream of nearly having sex with a naked Z...it didn't disturb me. I just see it as the past..I know its just my former inner child.


2. Internal Influence
Innocence
Zen says that if you drop knowledge - and within knowledge everything is included; your name, your identity, everything, because this has been given to you by others - if you drop all that has been given by others, you will have a totally different quality to your being: innocence. This will be a crucifixion of the persona, the personality, and there will be a resurrection of your innocence. You will become a child again, reborn.


The innocence that comes from a deep experience of life is childlike, but not childish. The innocence of children is beautiful, but ignorant. It will be replaced by mistrust and doubt as the child grows and learns that the world can be a dangerous and threatening place. But the innocence of a life lived fully has a quality of wisdom and acceptance of the ever-changing wonder of life.


Soul
I now know that whatever is meant to happen will happen.
Kailash taught me that.
I could never have made it up there.
Today just wearing this Keen sandal for one hour and my sole is hurting..
Thank God for the landslide and I had to keep the Keen sandals much earlier than I had planned.
If i had wore it another day, my feet would have been swelling..

Its scary to be without inner control..but it is also liberating as I m now consicous.
Just as having sadhana now need to be conscious.
Having my emotion also is about choices.
The same goes for my body...
Whether I choose to be sick or not..

External influence
Moment to moment
This card challenges us to move away from our preoccupations with other spaces and other times, and stay alert to what is happening in the here and now. Life is a great ocean in which you can play if you drop all your judgments, your preferences and the attachment to the details of your long-term plans. Be available to what comes your way, as it comes. And don't worry if you stumble or fall; just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, have a good laugh, and carry on.

Soul
Exactly.
i am taking this day by day.
Today need not be same as yesterday.
This sunday need be same as last sunday.
Everyday I woke up making choices...again and again.
it is no longer the same..








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When we are faced with a very difficult situation we have a choice: we can either be resentful, and try to find somebody or something to blame for the hardships, or we can face the challenge and grow. 

The flower shows us the way, as its passion for life leads it out of the darkness and into the light. There is no point fighting against the challenges of life, or trying to avoid or deny them. They are there, and if the seed is to become the flower we must go through them. Be courageous enough to grow into the flower you are meant to be.

Soul
Yes..whatever will be will be.


5. Resolution
Ordanariness

. Forget all about making headlines by inventing the latest widget, or dazzling your friends and colleagues with your unique star quality. The special gift you have to offer now is presented best by just taking things easily and simply, one step at a time.