Feeling scared over pilgrimage to Kailash

Jul 24 aft 1

Feeling better now but was wondering about my disturbance yesterday.

Check Symbolo card
The Problem
The Golden Girl
Meaning:
Deep down you feel inferior. You suffer from low self-esteem because you think someone either makes you appear plain and inadequate or that this is how you real­ly are. Both suggest you get hung up on making com­parisons (competition), something that can only make you lose in the long term. As long as you try to increase your self-esteem by appearing attractive, you will re­main a prisoner on the plane of self-portrayal - in es­sence, you don't believe in yourself. You feel inferior

The Way through the Problem
The Family
Meaning:
The way through the problem will demand a confession. But a confession means spiritually accepting something and wading through its waters. The matter is all the more troublesome because the generation of a third force presents its own challenges.

The outcome
Caring

Meaning:
The mother/child relationship has been restored within you. You don't feel so frightened, nor so helpless and at the mercy of others now that you have learned to look after yourself.


Additional guidance
Captivity
Meaning:
The problem is that deep down you are a prisoner and the stress caused by this situation continues to grow. The more you shake the bars to free yourself, the greater the pressure becomes.

Soul
So true...

Browsing my blog and saw a reader read this.
Arthritis
The emotion that is usually found within arthritis is a deep internal tension constructed from fear, inflexibility and uncertainty.
Fear of moving forward, the inability to release old hurts that have turned inward, and confusion about the direction of a person's life can be found in the heat and chemical imbalances of the joints and surrounding tissues.

The spiritual intelligence is to have freedom of movement, freedom to be oneself spiritually, and freedom to creatively express one's self are the core teaching.

You look at the attachment to beliefs and issues that currently hold or have held u back from ur dreams and goals. You need to ask what ideas, values, things and situations are worth holding onto. Only u can decide as u reach deep inside ur bones and find out what moves u and how u r to express ur dynamic spirit

Balancing slogan
I live in a state of joy
I am open to life
I freely express my creative spirit
I feel joy in my bones
No matter what, I love my life
As I breathe in, energy spinals around my joints and bones, allowing me to be healed, open and free.

Soul
This is timely as my joint pain is considerable in elbow and lately my knee.
Actually there were no knee pain during the child posture in Angarmadharna...but some pain when I lift up my leg to do Baby rock in Shambavi..
Anyway...I am definitely buying the knee and ankle guard.
Need it.
Maybe the fear of Kailash itself..
I probably been keeping myself numb and hence yesterday outpouring tears..