Volunteering out of responsibility, not out of willingness

Sept 7

This morning woke up upon alarm at 6.30 am. But I still feel sleepy and remembering today is a holiday..I slept back.
Yesterday didn't sit with shrine.

My mom too was tired and woke up at 7.30 am.
In the end I woke up just before 8 am and we went for breakfast and then adjourned to market.
Had a long walk there.

Had a good chat with G.
She said going to Kailash is something that you can't plan. If you are meant to go, you will go.
She said that its great I have mystical experience in Kailash, most people goes there and doesn't experience anything..
Yes, I also said that going there reaffirm that my meditational experience is real as the same experience happens in Kailash and Manasoravar.

Father, yes, volunteering is truly over.
And alas I understand that previously I did those roles in Isha out of responsibility. It was not volunteering.
Now that I am completely out...I can see that it was truly not volunteering.
Lets see.

On the role in sister company. Perhaps boss is right, I cannot handle both company together.
Lets see. May be now that I don't have volunteering. i may.
But actually for the sister company, it is so big that it should need a proper AP Finance head, unless my regional boss wants to take that role; which is possible.

Father, now a tot in my mind.
Whatever meant to happen, will happen.
I tot of Y and Z. It was not meant to happen and finally acceptance settles in.