Kailash is Dhynalinga and Lake Manasoravar is Teethakund in Isha ashram

Aug 22
Kailash trip is like life. So many aspects to it. Depends on which one I want to focus on.

If I focus on the money I paid, then the logistic/accomodation is no value for money. In my feedback form, I told Isha to present the trip as USD1.5k in values, and balance USD2.5k for donation.

Lake Manasoravar
Upon reaching the check point of the Lake, I can feel its energy, exploding into laughter, just feeling joyful
On the first night, woke up after midnight in the camp, feeling so cold. Not sure what is happening but I have already piled up my clothes. It was so cold that I don't know what else to do. Wondering if I die in the camp, die here in the Lake. Well, no regrets.
Suddenly a couple of dogs were howling, and I feel energy coming through my body. The energy were scanning my body, from my head to my toes like a MRT Scanner. Laughter exploded and I laughed for a very long time. Later, just slept and coldness no longer bothers me. Slept soundly till morning.

Next day, went for process at the Lake. 
Brought a big garbage bag to sit on at the beach near the Lake.
As I lay down the garbage bag, suddenly I exploded into tears, crying not sure why. Then later laughing load.
During the initiation, it was like in Sathsang.
Later taking the dip, the water was cold, but I tot something similar to Teethakund. I walked till knee deep and was about to come out. My room mate, W, called me to walked back and take 3 dips with the head in the water. So exhilarating. 

Kailash
When I reach the check point, suddenly an overwhelming need to cry. I just let the tears flow.
Prayed for a good poney and got myself a good one. It was a five hours on poney inclusive of intermittent stop.
Except for the pain in the foot the ride was good.
When I came down, I was totally fine, feeling fresh.
Slept well in the night.

Kailash looks so majestic, can feel its subtle energy, similar to Dhynalinga
The next day, I walked up to the high point of Kailash process. 
 It was a steep climb but alas I called out to Kailash for help, He came through. I felt a surge of energy and able to climb up okay.
The process was similar to Pancha Bhuta Aradhana process in Dhynalinga hall, albeit with chanting.
Its like in Dhynalinga but in open air.

Upon my return, I checked with others and they informed me that the Indian sees Kailash as the biggest Linga...so I am on the right track.

What is affirmed is that my meditational experience is real. My experience at Kailash is the same as my experience at home. No more doubts, no more uncertainty. I am different from others, but so be it.
I heard some whispering that I am indecent, laughing during the process. 
During Lake Manasoravar process, I can hear only myself laughing.
In Kailash, I think I heard another guy.

During Sathsang with Sadhguru, he shares the story of Gnanapathy, son of Shiva and Shakti.
He said that Gnanapathy was the cut head of gnanas that surrounds Shiva.
The gnanas are always drunk, laughing indecently. Some of you can identify with that.
I felt an acceptance, yes I am drunk and I laugh incessantly.
Infact whenever I am with Sadhguru, laughter just came.
When I came out from Sathsang, a few meditators said they tot of me when Sadhguru shared on gnanas.
So I may be a gnanas in past life.

What I learned from Kailash, whatever meant to be, will be.
Alas, breaking my control