Be the Fool (innocent and free from Past) - 3

Oct 14

Osho
Issue - Projections
The film exists just at the back, but u never look at that. And the projector is there. Your mind is at the back of the whole thing, and the mind is the projector.
A projection can be devilish or divine, disturbing or comforting, but it is still a projection - a cloud preventing us from seeing reality as it is.

Soul
3 projections I have realised
1. GM - not acting her role. Is me also, not following my destiny, not being a woman
2. Partner to love me as a woman - me, not being a woman and wants someone to show me and love me as a woman
3. Money - Eight of Diamond.
I have been mixing money with love. Alas, I recalled my natal chart also says that and it mention that this life time, I am to create the money myself, not married for it.

2. Internal Influence
The Master
The whole work of meditation is to make u aware of all that is "mind and disidentify from it.
Once ur awareness becomes a flame, it burns up the whole slavery that the mind has created. There is no blissfulness more precious than freedom, than being a master of my own destiny.

Soul
I am a real worrier, always lookout for set-back.
This morning tot of my writing, a tot came, what else to write. How to continue. I look at it and dispel, I will be writing as long as I live and experience life.
I also found out about my Destiny. Now more sure than other. I desire both Love and Money and I can make it on my own. Need not depend on others, need not create setbacks.

3. Outer influence
Control
To control that mind, one has to remain so cold and frozen that no life energy is allowed to move into ur limbs, into ur body. If energy is allowed to move, those repressions will surface.
His world is ordered and perfect, but it is not alive - he cannot allow any spontaneity or vulnerability to enter it.

Soul
I now know I don't trust people and that I am not open as I tot I am.
I am opening up to people who can help me reach my Destiny.
Now, during meditation, lower limbs can move and my body felt lighter and can even touch my head easily for one leg asana.
I also know about me not allowing myself to be a woman. Well, that's my aim for samyama.

4. What is needed for resolution
Moment to moment.
The past is no more and the future is not yet, both are unnecessarily moving in direction which don't exist.
A man who wants to be in the present has not to think, has just to see and enter the gate.
Just step lightly and non-seriously, and at the same time absolutely balanced and alert.
Be available to what comes ur way, as it comes. And don't worry if u stumble or fall; just pick urself up, dust urself and have a good laugh and carry on.

5. The understanding
Aloneness.
Aloneness is the presence of oneself. Aloneness is very positive. It is a presence, overflowing presence. You are so full of presence that u can fill whole universe with ur presence and there is no need for anybody.
Be a Light unto yourself, each of us must develop within ourselves the capacity to make our way through the darkness without our companions, maps or guide.
Soul
Yeap. I desire love and money and I will make it myself. Amen